how many children do you have?
two
how many pregnancies have you had?
2
how old were you when you gave birth?
29
what are your childrens' ages?
3 and 1
did any of those end in early release? (miscarriage, still birth or abortion?) if so, can you share a little about those experience?
No
what surprised you about the mushroom journey?
That it is a plant!!
Protocol & Dosing
with psilocybin, what has been your dosing experience?
microdose (.1 - 1 gram)
how long did you dose for?
three months or more
if microdosing, what size would you have? (.1 - 1gram)
.1g, .15g
in what form were you ingesting the mushroom?
capsules
how often did you dose?
protocol -- following a set regimen
if you were on a protocol, what protocol did you follow?
james fadiman - one day on, two days off
did you have any support with dosing?
when did you start ingesting mushrooms?
after i gave birth
After Birth & Breastfeeding
why did you choose to ingest mushrooms after you gave birth?
I was desperate to find an alternative to modern medicine. I suffered from PPD/PPA and rage after my first pregnancy that I didn’t recognize who I was. I was taking Zoloft but that didn’t help, it just felt wrong. Becoming pregnant with my second 14 months after, stress in my marriage and with an active toddler, I needed to find a change. 6 months postpartum after my 2nd pregnancy, I felt those feelings coming back. I found out about microdosing and wanted to try it to see if it would help. I have been microdosing for 6 months and incorporate yoga, breath work, meditation and it has saved my life. I feel so much inner peace and love for the present moment. I definitely could not say that 6 months ago.
did you ingest mushrooms while breastfeeding?
Yes
did you notice any benefits to a) yourself b) to your baby and what were the benefits when ingesting mushrooms while breastfeeding?
More benefits to myself than I did my baby
did you notice any challenges to a) yourself b) to your baby and what were the benefits when ingesting mushrooms while breastfeeding?
I was hesitant on starting while BF since there was little to no research about the effects. Other than that, no challenges.
Parenting
what benefits did you notice in your parenting that you attribute to the mushroom?
I felt that I could hold space for my 2nd daughter when she was having her tough moments. Temperament of the second baby is very different than my first. When she gets angry she will throw her head back aggressively, flail her body and scream/cry so loud. I don’t know if I would have been able to be patient with this behavior while trying to care for my toddler. I wanted to also show my first born grace and compassion since it can be difficult adding a new family member. Holding space for myself and my girls has been life changing.
what were the unwanted effects or challenges of ingesting mushrooms while parenting?
None
what benefits have you noticed about your children that you attribute to the mushroom?
They get a mom who is present in their life ;)