how many children do you have?
one
how many pregnancies have you had?
1
how old were you when you gave birth?
21
what are your childrens' ages?
2
did any of those end in early release? (miscarriage, still birth or abortion?) if so, can you share a little about those experience?
my only pregnancy ended with a birth
what surprised you about the mushroom journey?
As it healed, it also brought new areas of healing to my awareness. it's not tied up in a bow, and i need much more support integrating than I previously thought
Protocol & Dosing
with psilocybin, what has been your dosing experience?
microdose (.1 - 1 gram), mid dose (1-3 grams), full dose (3+ grams), high dose (6+ grams)
how long did you dose for?
throughout the year
if microdosing, what size would you have? (.1 - 1gram)
.1g, .15g, .2g, .25g, .3g, .5g, 1g
in what form were you ingesting the mushroom?
capsules, teas
how often did you dose?
protocol -- following a set regimen
if you were on a protocol, what protocol did you follow?
james fadiman - one day on, two days off
did you have any support with dosing?
found online resources
when did you start ingesting mushrooms?
after i gave birth
Pregnancy
why did you choose to ingest mushrooms before your pregnancy?
I wanted to explore psychedelics, it was also a viable option when I was taking drug tests for THC
why did you choose to ingest mushrooms during your pregnancy?
I did not
what benefits did you notice in your pregnancy?
N/A
After Birth & Breastfeeding
why did you choose to ingest mushrooms after you gave birth?
Extreme postpartum Depression/Anxiety
did you ingest mushrooms while breastfeeding?
Yes
did you notice any benefits to a) yourself b) to your baby and what were the benefits when ingesting mushrooms while breastfeeding?
I only used the mushrooms for a short time while breastfeeding. Unfortunately, I quit breastfeeding when I got paranoid about the possible effects on my baby. I wish I would have done so much longer. For me, I felt more patient and connected to my baby.
did you notice any challenges to a) yourself b) to your baby and what were the benefits when ingesting mushrooms while breastfeeding?
the paranoia of impacting him negatively was overwhelming me leading to a sooner weaning
Parenting
what benefits did you notice in your parenting that you attribute to the mushroom?
I was much more present with him, curious of his feelings/behaviors, patient in meeting his needs
what were the unwanted effects or challenges of ingesting mushrooms while parenting?
in my explorations, I would sometimes be preoccupied with my learnings of the universe. So at times i would be more present, other times I would be less, escaping.
what benefits have you noticed about your children that you attribute to the mushroom?
he is very aware of everything, very smart, connects many things together in his beautiful mind
Summary
what would you like to say to other mothers & pregnant/birthing people about your own experience?
Please, do not let what is unknown to you bring up fear in your heart. You are meant to grow, as more becomes known, more becomes unknown. Find ways to tether to the earth, hold your babies close, allow them to fly when they're ready.
would you recommend this path to other people?
Yes, for those who can stomach it. Once you begin, you cannot go back.
