how many children do you have?
one
how many pregnancies have you had?
Three
how old were you when you gave birth?
With Gustavo, 32 years old. With Olivia 33 years old.
what are your childrens' ages?
One child earthside- Madeline is 10 years old
did any of those end in early release? (miscarriage, still birth or abortion?) if so, can you share a little about those experience?
Two children are no longer earth-side. Gustavo Gabriel was stillborn at 40 gorgeous weeks of a “normal” pregnancy. Without warning- on February 15th 2011. Olivia Flor was miscarried at week 17 due to trisomy 18 in August 8th 2012.
what surprised you about the mushroom journey?
The JOY and happiness and freedom I felt in my mind body and soul. The extra laughter - finding my breath again after 12 years of deep grief.
Protocol & Dosing
with psilocybin, what has been your dosing experience?
microdose (.1 - 1 gram)
how long did you dose for?
throughout the year
if microdosing, what size would you have? (.1 - 1gram)
.1g
in what form were you ingesting the mushroom?
capsules
how often did you dose?
protocol -- following a set regimen
if you were on a protocol, what protocol did you follow?
james fadiman - one day on, two days off
did you have any support with dosing?
friends/ relatives/ community member guidance, found online resources
when did you start ingesting mushrooms?
after i gave birth
After Birth & Breastfeeding
why did you choose to ingest mushrooms after you gave birth?
To start to heal from the trauma of loss of my last two children. To reclaim my body, heart, and soul. To reclaim my joy.
did you ingest mushrooms while breastfeeding?
No
did you notice any benefits to a) yourself b) to your baby and what were the benefits when ingesting mushrooms while breastfeeding?
N/a
did you notice any challenges to a) yourself b) to your baby and what were the benefits when ingesting mushrooms while breastfeeding?
N/a
Parenting
what benefits did you notice in your parenting that you attribute to the mushroom?
Mushrooms were a balm to my grief-soaked and fear-soaked heart. It’s made me a more connected mom and one who can be fully present to play and joy with my child and partner.
what were the unwanted effects or challenges of ingesting mushrooms while parenting?
None this far
what benefits have you noticed about your children that you attribute to the mushroom?
Great question! Since Madeline did not ingest via milk or placenta- she is experiencing a parent who is practicing full-presence and liberation with her. Something I never got to experience with my own parents/ mamá.
