About the MOTM

Age:
34
Location:
Ontario, Canada
Mother of:
one
Gender identity:
female
Dosing:
microdose (.1 - 1 gram), mid dose (1-3 grams), full dose (3+ grams)
Protocol:
protocol - a set regime

The Story

how many children do you have?
one
how many pregnancies have you had?
2 pregnancies (1 full term, 1 miscarriage)
how old were you when you gave birth?
32
what are your childrens' ages?
2
did any of those end in early release? (miscarriage, still birth or abortion?) if so, can you share a little about those experience?
Miscarriage at about 8 weeks when my first born was 10 months old. Experienced same postpartum depression and anxiety that I experienced with my first pregnancy. Very intense emotions and felt out of control. I didn't know what to expect as miscarriages aren't talked about as much.
what surprised you about the mushroom journey?
It didn't feel like such a big deal after all the fear and caution I felt going into it. I pressed forward knowing my Dr was prescribing much worse without any hesitation.

Protocol & Dosing

with psilocybin, what has been your dosing experience?
microdose (.1 - 1 gram), mid dose (1-3 grams), full dose (3+ grams)
how long did you dose for?
one month
if microdosing, what size would you have? (.1 - 1gram)
.15g
in what form were you ingesting the mushroom?
powdered
how often did you dose?
protocol -- following a set regimen
if you were on a protocol, what protocol did you follow?
james fadiman - one day on, two days off
did you have any support with dosing?
when did you start ingesting mushrooms?
after i gave birth

Pregnancy

why did you choose to ingest mushrooms before your pregnancy?
Only full dosed before pregnancy
why did you choose to ingest mushrooms during your pregnancy?
Never dosed during pregnancy
what benefits did you notice in your pregnancy?
Didn't dose in pregnancy

After Birth & Breastfeeding

why did you choose to ingest mushrooms after you gave birth?
The postpartum depression was so heavy, every thought felt existentially challenging. I knew I needed help to reconnect to myself again.
did you ingest mushrooms while breastfeeding?
Yes
did you notice any benefits to a) yourself b) to your baby and what were the benefits when ingesting mushrooms while breastfeeding?
A) I felt more connected than usual while nursing her, could fully be present in what felt like such a gift B)I didn't notice any changes in my baby, just enjoying my presence
did you notice any challenges to a) yourself b) to your baby and what were the benefits when ingesting mushrooms while breastfeeding?
A) first challenge was getting over the fear of microdosing while breastfeeding, but then once I was dosed it felt so right and good. B) no seeming challenges with baby

Parenting

what benefits did you notice in your parenting that you attribute to the mushroom?
my mindset totally shifted as I felt I could let go and discover I was still perfectly capable of taking care of my child, and even connected with her more easily. I felt I was more present and engaged at her level. Just letting go of the whole weight and guilt of motherhood was lifting, and I could play.
what were the unwanted effects or challenges of ingesting mushrooms while parenting?
I did find myself to be quite tired while dosing, wanted to sleep more. Which I'm sure was needed, but not always doable. I am seeking to gain energy as a parent to a toddler, so feeling more tired would serve long term
what benefits have you noticed about your children that you attribute to the mushroom?
She seems highly sensitive and intuitive, not what I would attribute to mushrooms tho. She was always called an old soul.

Summary

what would you like to say to other mothers & pregnant/birthing people about your own experience?
Don't be afraid to take baby steps and do what you feel comfortable with
would you recommend this path to other people?
Yes!!
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About the MOTM

Age:
34
Location:
Ontario, Canada
Mother of:
one
Gender identity:
female
Dosing:
microdose (.1 - 1 gram), mid dose (1-3 grams), full dose (3+ grams)
Protocol:
protocol - a set regime
microdose (.1 - 1 gram), mid dose (1-3 grams), full dose (3+ grams)
one month
.15g
powdered
protocol -- following a set regimen
james fadiman - one day on, two days off
after i gave birth

The Story

how many children do you have?
one
how many pregnancies have you had?
2 pregnancies (1 full term, 1 miscarriage)
how old were you when you gave birth?
32
what are your childrens' ages?
2
did any of those end in early release? (miscarriage, still birth or abortion?) if so, can you share a little about those experience?
Miscarriage at about 8 weeks when my first born was 10 months old. Experienced same postpartum depression and anxiety that I experienced with my first pregnancy. Very intense emotions and felt out of control. I didn't know what to expect as miscarriages aren't talked about as much.
what surprised you about the mushroom journey?
It didn't feel like such a big deal after all the fear and caution I felt going into it. I pressed forward knowing my Dr was prescribing much worse without any hesitation.

Protocol & Dosing

with psilocybin, what has been your dosing experience?
microdose (.1 - 1 gram), mid dose (1-3 grams), full dose (3+ grams)
how long did you dose for?
one month
if microdosing, what size would you have? (.1 - 1gram)
.15g
in what form were you ingesting the mushroom?
powdered
how often did you dose?
protocol -- following a set regimen
if you were on a protocol, what protocol did you follow?
james fadiman - one day on, two days off
did you have any support with dosing?
when did you start ingesting mushrooms?
after i gave birth

Pregnancy

why did you choose to ingest mushrooms before your pregnancy?
Only full dosed before pregnancy
why did you choose to ingest mushrooms during your pregnancy?
Never dosed during pregnancy
what benefits did you notice in your pregnancy?
Didn't dose in pregnancy

Postpartum & Breastfeeding

why did you choose to ingest mushrooms after you gave birth?
The postpartum depression was so heavy, every thought felt existentially challenging. I knew I needed help to reconnect to myself again.
did you ingest mushrooms while breastfeeding?
Yes
did you notice any benefits to a) yourself b) to your baby and what were the benefits when ingesting mushrooms while breastfeeding?
A) I felt more connected than usual while nursing her, could fully be present in what felt like such a gift B)I didn't notice any changes in my baby, just enjoying my presence
did you notice any challenges to a) yourself b) to your baby and what were the benefits when ingesting mushrooms while breastfeeding?
A) first challenge was getting over the fear of microdosing while breastfeeding, but then once I was dosed it felt so right and good. B) no seeming challenges with baby

Parenting

what benefits did you notice in your parenting that you attribute to the mushroom?
my mindset totally shifted as I felt I could let go and discover I was still perfectly capable of taking care of my child, and even connected with her more easily. I felt I was more present and engaged at her level. Just letting go of the whole weight and guilt of motherhood was lifting, and I could play.
what were the unwanted effects or challenges of ingesting mushrooms while parenting?
I did find myself to be quite tired while dosing, wanted to sleep more. Which I'm sure was needed, but not always doable. I am seeking to gain energy as a parent to a toddler, so feeling more tired would serve long term
what benefits have you noticed about your children that you attribute to the mushroom?
She seems highly sensitive and intuitive, not what I would attribute to mushrooms tho. She was always called an old soul.

Summary

what would you like to say to other mothers & pregnant/birthing people about your own experience?
Don't be afraid to take baby steps and do what you feel comfortable with
would you recommend this path to other people?
Yes!!
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