how many children do you have?
three
how many pregnancies have you had?
4
how old were you when you gave birth?
31
what are your childrens' ages?
6, 3, 1
did any of those end in early release? (miscarriage, still birth or abortion?) if so, can you share a little about those experience?
Yes, abortion. As emotionally challenging as this was at the time to choose to abort- in hindsight it was the best decision. I was 23.
what surprised you about the mushroom journey?
Just how adaptogenic they are!!
Protocol & Dosing
with psilocybin, what has been your dosing experience?
microdose (.1 - 1 gram), mid dose (1-3 grams)
how long did you dose for?
one month, still dosing
if microdosing, what size would you have? (.1 - 1gram)
.1g, .15g
in what form were you ingesting the mushroom?
capsules
how often did you dose?
protocol -- following a set regimen
if you were on a protocol, what protocol did you follow?
Six on one off. Would appreciate more guidance here !
did you have any support with dosing?
when did you start ingesting mushrooms?
after i gave birth
Pregnancy
why did you choose to ingest mushrooms before your pregnancy?
I did not
why did you choose to ingest mushrooms during your pregnancy?
I did not
what benefits did you notice in your pregnancy?
I did not take this medicine during my pregnancies
After Birth & Breastfeeding
why did you choose to ingest mushrooms after you gave birth?
PPA, PPD , OCD traumas. I have done the pharmaceuticals, the trauma therapy. I respect those who choose that route but it no longer serves me or I it.
did you ingest mushrooms while breastfeeding?
Yes
did you notice any benefits to a) yourself b) to your baby and what were the benefits when ingesting mushrooms while breastfeeding?
My ability to parent has softened. I am more present and aware. I am able to notice My OCD and anxious tendencies and meet them with grace and curiosity as opposed to spiraling out of control.
My supply has decreased (which could be other factors ), the taste and consistency has changed. My son is still nursing just less frequently
did you notice any challenges to a) yourself b) to your baby and what were the benefits when ingesting mushrooms while breastfeeding?
The challenges for me more so reside in the chaos of my life or inside I should say. I made the choice to continue to take the medicine. Even on days you’re going to be because that’s where I need the medicine most. As far as benefits for my baby, I haven’t seen any negative effects. However, our breast-feeding journey has been cut down quite a bit due to circumstances and schedules, which makes me so sad to admit in writing here.
Parenting
what benefits did you notice in your parenting that you attribute to the mushroom?
The pause. The slowing down to listen to my responses. beginning to understand the familial lineage conditioning, and how default to that I was/am acting in my parenting
what were the unwanted effects or challenges of ingesting mushrooms while parenting?
At this time I don’t have any. Perhaps maybe just elevated anxiety on the more challenging days but nothing that I can’t dance with or haven’t already dance with.
what benefits have you noticed about your children that you attribute to the mushroom?
I have to say the biggest benefit that I’ve seen is in my oldest six-year-old son. he is a very sensitive, so then has quite a bit of sensory processing issues, but because of the benefits in the softness that the medicine has created in me, I see it directly correlating with his softness and ability to slow down and process things, more gently, and kindly with others, but most importantly, himself. this was one of my main goals when I decided to take the medicine to assist in my relationship with him because our relationship was suffering the most.
Summary
what would you like to say to other mothers & pregnant/birthing people about your own experience?
I did not take this medicine while pregnant or birthing however it was brought to my attention earlier I probably would have knowing what I know now, but I can’t speak to how the medicine moved through me while in that state of birthing or pregnancy. Pregnancy/ birthing is a beautiful psychedelic trip in and of itself mushrooms or not.
would you recommend this path to other people?
I absolutely would recommend this path to another, mama. Particularly those that are curious in healing themselves in a deeper way. I think this way works for me and this decision was a bit more easy for me was due to the fact that I have exhausted all the standard orthodox medical treatment for OCD and anxiety and depression. I also am not a stranger to meditation and yoga kundalini breath work, fueling my body with good nutrients. This was more or less an easy shift.
