how many children do you have?
one
how many pregnancies have you had?
1
how old were you when you gave birth?
24
what are your childrens' ages?
2
did any of those end in early release? (miscarriage, still birth or abortion?) if so, can you share a little about those experience?
No
what surprised you about the mushroom journey?
I wasn’t surprised, I know this medicine. I was just happy that I listened to myself and trusted myself against the backlash.
Protocol & Dosing
with psilocybin, what has been your dosing experience?
high dose (6+ grams)
how long did you dose for?
one month
if microdosing, what size would you have? (.1 - 1gram)
.3g
in what form were you ingesting the mushroom?
capsules, teas, whole
how often did you dose?
protocol -- following a set regimen
if you were on a protocol, what protocol did you follow?
james fadiman - one day on, two days off
did you have any support with dosing?
when did you start ingesting mushrooms?
during my pregnancy
Pregnancy
why did you choose to ingest mushrooms before your pregnancy?
I actually only worked with high mid to high dosages prior to for consciousness expansion
why did you choose to ingest mushrooms during your pregnancy?
During pregnancy again I only worked with middle dosage experiences for clarity during moments of depression.
what benefits did you notice in your pregnancy?
After Birth & Breastfeeding
why did you choose to ingest mushrooms after you gave birth?
Afterwards I experienced postpartum depression, my family lineage is suffering from inter-gender trauma and I have the awareness of it but I haven’t escaped the physicality of the situation. Financial stress has played a huge part of why my depression even existed and mushrooms kept me on track. It allowed me to see the bigger picture and to remember the power optimism has in creating a new path for my lineage.
did you ingest mushrooms while breastfeeding?
did you notice any benefits to a) yourself b) to your baby and what were the benefits when ingesting mushrooms while breastfeeding?
The power of optimism!! reconnection to joy.
did you notice any challenges to a) yourself b) to your baby and what were the benefits when ingesting mushrooms while breastfeeding?
Parenting
what benefits did you notice in your parenting that you attribute to the mushroom?
I had felt disconnected from my baby when he was first born because of the depression. It was terrible, I thought something was wrong with me until I because a doula and realized the same thing is happening with thousands of women. As soon as I microdosed a completed thirty days I was able to only need it quarterly. My relationship with my baby improved tremendously we even started solo traveling just weeks after
what were the unwanted effects or challenges of ingesting mushrooms while parenting?
None I’m an entheogen educator so I truly trusted and believed in this practice.
what benefits have you noticed about your children that you attribute to the mushroom?
Deep connection to his emotions and his ability to form sentences is almost 3x quicker than most children his age.
Summary
what would you like to say to other mothers & pregnant/birthing people about your own experience?
I trusted the medicine alot more because I cultivated my own. I grew a relationship with the plant first. I recommend getting to know nature in a deeper way so that you can trust it more. I know how it behaves because I watch it grow from cells to full functioning fungi. I love it and nurture it like a child and it grows me and nurtures me, we tend to eachother. That is the reciprocal nature of this earth.
would you recommend this path to other people?
Yes and I do, I have an organization called Village Of Mothers, we microdose regularly in circle and many women are experiencing this medicine with us for the first time.
