how many children do you have?
one
how many pregnancies have you had?
2
how old were you when you gave birth?
41
what are your childrens' ages?
15 months
did any of those end in early release? (miscarriage, still birth or abortion?) if so, can you share a little about those experience?
Yes, my last pregnancy resulted in an early miscarriage, it was something really strange since I was not expecting to get pregnant so fast after my period came back since my daughter was born, she is 15 months now
what surprised you about the mushroom journey?
When I did the high dose I found out that I have been carrying a lot of pain from my mother and my grandmothers. I want to be a better daughter and a better mother, we all deserve to be happy mothers and to have fulfilling motherhoods. We are raising the future of the world and we can change and ease some of the challenged that our grandmothers and mother had to experience.
Protocol & Dosing
with psilocybin, what has been your dosing experience?
microdose (.1 - 1 gram), full dose (3+ grams)
how long did you dose for?
three months or more, still dosing
if microdosing, what size would you have? (.1 - 1gram)
.15g, .25g
in what form were you ingesting the mushroom?
pastes
how often did you dose?
protocol -- following a set regimen
if you were on a protocol, what protocol did you follow?
paul stamets - four days on, three off
did you have any support with dosing?
professional microdosing/ psilocybin coach/ support person, no support or research, mostly my own intuition
when did you start ingesting mushrooms?
before i became pregnant
Pregnancy
why did you choose to ingest mushrooms before your pregnancy?
I started microdosing to increase my creativity, to calm my mind and to be more connected to myself and to be more present in my day to day life
why did you choose to ingest mushrooms during your pregnancy?
I did not ingest mushrooms while pregnant
what benefits did you notice in your pregnancy?
I did not ingest mushrooms while pregnant
After Birth & Breastfeeding
why did you choose to ingest mushrooms after you gave birth?
I came back to microdosing and also had a high dose experience because I wanted to be a better mother to my daughter, I wanted to have more ease and be more playful and present for her. I love the way mushrooms calm my mind and make me feel present, they make me enjoy more my daughter, myself and they make my mind calmer and the internal dialogue more compassionate.
did you ingest mushrooms while breastfeeding?
Yes
did you notice any benefits to a) yourself b) to your baby and what were the benefits when ingesting mushrooms while breastfeeding?
I am a better mom, I feel calmer, I play more with my daughter, I feel like I can resolve anything that comes our way. I enjoy more my time with her and feel more patient
did you notice any challenges to a) yourself b) to your baby and what were the benefits when ingesting mushrooms while breastfeeding?
When I was not microdosing I was less patient, I kept thinking about all the chores that I had to do and was not able to enjoy my time with her, I was way up in my head and not present for her
Parenting
what benefits did you notice in your parenting that you attribute to the mushroom?
More present, patient, playful and willing to enjoy my time with my baby with more ease
what were the unwanted effects or challenges of ingesting mushrooms while parenting?
I haven’t felt any challenges
what benefits have you noticed about your children that you attribute to the mushroom?
She is really smart, talks a lot, is very intuitive and happy
Summary
what would you like to say to other mothers & pregnant/birthing people about your own experience?
To follow your intuition, to become your own authority, to be a sovereign woman. No one will ever know your children and your body as you do, so trust your instincts and enjoy the ride of motherhood
would you recommend this path to other people?
Absolutely