how many children do you have?
one
how many pregnancies have you had?
Two
how old were you when you gave birth?
25
what are your childrens' ages?
5
did any of those end in early release? (miscarriage, still birth or abortion?) if so, can you share a little about those experience?
Yes, I experienced a medical abortion in my first pregnancy. I was young and convinced by my partner at the time it wasn’t a good time.
what surprised you about the mushroom journey?
The different layers of insight that trickled in depending on the phases of mothering
Protocol & Dosing
with psilocybin, what has been your dosing experience?
microdose (.1 - 1 gram), mid dose (1-3 grams), full dose (3+ grams), high dose (6+ grams)
how long did you dose for?
throughout the year
if microdosing, what size would you have? (.1 - 1gram)
.1g, .15g
in what form were you ingesting the mushroom?
capsules, whole, powdered
how often did you dose?
protocol -- following a set regimen
if you were on a protocol, what protocol did you follow?
james fadiman - one day on, two days off
did you have any support with dosing?
when did you start ingesting mushrooms?
before i became pregnant
Pregnancy
why did you choose to ingest mushrooms before your pregnancy?
Initially for pain management for rheumatoid arthritis, then for consciousness exploration and then for mental stress support
why did you choose to ingest mushrooms during your pregnancy?
I microdosed in my first tri mester as a way to welcome the new life inside me and cementing my role as a Mother, did a ceremony for myself in nature connecting to the essence/Love of Gaia.
what benefits did you notice in your pregnancy?
My 1 experience while pregnant was like an opening ceremony to the experience of Motherhood. I was unsure if I was ready to taken on that role, my sons father wanted me to get (another) abortion. But I sat in ceremony with the medicine to channel Mother Earths strength and Unconditional Love to take on this journey. I felt peace and confidence after my ceremony✨
After Birth & Breastfeeding
why did you choose to ingest mushrooms after you gave birth?
I was mentally depleted, in a toxic relationship and felt very alone at that time. This is when i started pairing my micro with lions mane without fail
did you ingest mushrooms while breastfeeding?
Yes
did you notice any benefits to a) yourself b) to your baby and what were the benefits when ingesting mushrooms while breastfeeding?
I noticed a difference in my outlook in life at that time. I did not necessarily see changes to my baby
did you notice any challenges to a) yourself b) to your baby and what were the benefits when ingesting mushrooms while breastfeeding?
No
Parenting
what benefits did you notice in your parenting that you attribute to the mushroom?
I was more patient and present
what were the unwanted effects or challenges of ingesting mushrooms while parenting?
I noticed once he got into the toddlerhood realm, if the dose was even a bit higher than a micro, my CNS would feel so sensitive to the new rhythm of high energy output from my little one and I had less time to integrate/journal/reflect.
what benefits have you noticed about your children that you attribute to the mushroom?
Unsure of this one
Summary
what would you like to say to other mothers & pregnant/birthing people about your own experience?
I hadnt shared my use during pregnancy and postpartum before and this feels SO liberating.
would you recommend this path to other people?
I would recommend self exploration and honoring your intuition if felt called to take on this path
