how many children do you have?
one
how many pregnancies have you had?
3
how old were you when you gave birth?
Currently pregnant, I will be 32 when I birth my first child.
what are your childrens' ages?
26 weeks pregnant
did any of those end in early release? (miscarriage, still birth or abortion?) if so, can you share a little about those experience?
Never wanted kids so 1st pregnancy was in 2021 & ended in a medical abortion at 8 weeks. 2nd pregnancy one year later, almost kept bc abortion was painful so I carried till 12 weeks then got scared and had surgical abortion, which was way worse. 3rd pregnancy one year later again and fully decided to keep. Even after natural conscious contraception, I decided I was supposed to have this baby.
what surprised you about the mushroom journey?
I am still ongoing with this journey. I am due in March 2024.
Protocol & Dosing
with psilocybin, what has been your dosing experience?
microdose (.1 - 1 gram), mid dose (1-3 grams)
how long did you dose for?
still dosing
if microdosing, what size would you have? (.1 - 1gram)
.2g, 1g
in what form were you ingesting the mushroom?
teas, whole
how often did you dose?
intuitively -- as needed
if you were on a protocol, what protocol did you follow?
Intuitively
did you have any support with dosing?
when did you start ingesting mushrooms?
before i became pregnant
Pregnancy
why did you choose to ingest mushrooms before your pregnancy?
I have spent 10 years exploring with hallucinogens and mdma because I always felt called to their spiritual healing potential.
why did you choose to ingest mushrooms during your pregnancy?
I was beginning to feel a disconnect to my pregnancy and my faith in my spiritual practice. I knew consuming mushrooms was safe for me while being pregnant so I started with a microdose the first time at about 3 months then a 1.5 g dose at 5 months. After both doses I felt immense clarity and trust in myself and the universe.
what benefits did you notice in your pregnancy?
The mental clarity of my decisions, a newfound appreciation of my body and what it’s capable of. A profound sense of hope and faith knowing my spirit guides and ancestors and the divine universal intelligence is all within me supporting me.
After Birth & Breastfeeding
why did you choose to ingest mushrooms after you gave birth?
Haven’t given birth yet. But I learned that psilocybin is safe for baby during breastfeeding so I will be ingesting mushrooms to remain sovereign in my decisions as a new parent. For example, I will be avoiding vaccines and western medicine as much as possible and I am to expect unsolicited advice and backlash from my family for this decision. Taking mushrooms is completely spiritual for me. It gives me clarity, hope, and sovereignty in my faith to make the decisions I feel are intuitively best for me and my baby. And to not be coerced into something I feel is wrong- no matter what grief I am given by others.
did you ingest mushrooms while breastfeeding?
did you notice any benefits to a) yourself b) to your baby and what were the benefits when ingesting mushrooms while breastfeeding?
n/a
did you notice any challenges to a) yourself b) to your baby and what were the benefits when ingesting mushrooms while breastfeeding?
N/a
Summary
what would you like to say to other mothers & pregnant/birthing people about your own experience?
Tune into your own feminine intuition. It’s hard to make a decision when we are bombarded with other people opinions every day all over the internet. Take the time to have a daily meditation practice where you call in your own intuitive sense so you can make the best decisions for you and your family.
would you recommend this path to other people?
Absolutely