how many children do you have?
three
how many pregnancies have you had?
5
how old were you when you gave birth?
22, 25, 31
what are your childrens' ages?
11, 8, 2
did any of those end in early release? (miscarriage, still birth or abortion?) if so, can you share a little about those experience?
Yes I've had 2 that never joined us earthside
what surprised you about the mushroom journey?
How quickly it helped me. How intentional healing can come from this medicine and how deeply its made me feel instead of just numbing it all away.
Protocol & Dosing
with psilocybin, what has been your dosing experience?
microdose (.1 - 1 gram)
how long did you dose for?
throughout the year
if microdosing, what size would you have? (.1 - 1gram)
.5g
in what form were you ingesting the mushroom?
whole
how often did you dose?
intuitively -- as needed
if you were on a protocol, what protocol did you follow?
Intuitive
did you have any support with dosing?
when did you start ingesting mushrooms?
during my pregnancy
Pregnancy
why did you choose to ingest mushrooms before your pregnancy?
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why did you choose to ingest mushrooms during your pregnancy?
I chose MD with my third pregnancy to support my mental health. My first pregnancy ended at 34 weeks with my son spending the first 15 days of his life in the NICU. I was never prepared for the whirlwind of emotions that took me through. My second pregnancy was not planned and I was very sick with hg and spd. I suffered greatly from PPD after both of those pregnancys and reached out for help and was prescribed zoloft. It made me numb. And I didn't want to be like that again. My third pregnancy I had hg again. I was also dealing with massive amounts of physical pain due to a genetic conevtive tissue disorder I didn't know I had. I was severely depressed and could hardly move on a daily bases from the pain. I decided to trust plant medicine and take a microdose around 20 weeks. I had releif for the first time in months! I was able to get up and dance around a bit and actually giggle with my partner. I hadn't felt happiness and releif like that in months! And the effects lasted me for a few weeks. I only MD one other time after that during pregnancy and it helped me get through the end of my longest most painful pregnancy.
what benefits did you notice in your pregnancy?
After Birth & Breastfeeding
why did you choose to ingest mushrooms after you gave birth?
I could feel my PPD/PPA sneaking up a few weeks after my last son was born. My partner urged me to partake again to find releif like I had before. I finally did again and felt instant relief again! I decided that I would trust this process and started MD just a few times every few weeks. I listened to my body and took intuitive doses choosing the fruit that was calling me. I have been able to process and heal so much on this journey the past 2 years. It has been messy and hard and beautiful. But I was able to get some of my life back instead of sinking deeper in to my pain and depression. I owe so much to mushrooms.
did you ingest mushrooms while breastfeeding?
did you notice any benefits to a) yourself b) to your baby and what were the benefits when ingesting mushrooms while breastfeeding?
My anxiety and depression was eased and my physical pain became more manageable.
did you notice any challenges to a) yourself b) to your baby and what were the benefits when ingesting mushrooms while breastfeeding?
Parenting
what benefits did you notice in your parenting that you attribute to the mushroom?
I was able to laugh and play with my children when before I was a depressed couch potatoe.. I was able to go outside and do things with them.
what were the unwanted effects or challenges of ingesting mushrooms while parenting?
So far none.
what benefits have you noticed about your children that you attribute to the mushroom?
My son is very observant and empathic and incredibly smart!
Summary
what would you like to say to other mothers & pregnant/birthing people about your own experience?
Trust yourself your body is wiser than you know.
would you recommend this path to other people?
100% i think every human could use this treatment at one time or another in their lives.