how many children do you have?
one
how many pregnancies have you had?
2
how old were you when you gave birth?
23
what are your childrens' ages?
Almost 3
did any of those end in early release? (miscarriage, still birth or abortion?) if so, can you share a little about those experience?
One early release 6 weeks. Felt my spirit baby come into my sphere, and my cycle was 2 weeks beyond its usual day. Intense cramping, thick clots, heavy bleeding unlike my usual cycle.
what surprised you about the mushroom journey?
The depth of clarity & insight happened in subtle ways vs a heavier dose that happened intensely. Microdosing intuitively vs a set schedule really opened a deep communication with not only my desire to sit with the mushroom medicine but asking the body how she felt about it. Seeing where in the nervous system & body/field I was still integrating something or needing to set the intention to journey deeper in that space.
Microdosing has been an extremely effective & beautiful way to integrate every sphere of my life.
Protocol & Dosing
with psilocybin, what has been your dosing experience?
microdose (.1 - 1 gram), mid dose (1-3 grams), full dose (3+ grams)
how long did you dose for?
throughout the year
if microdosing, what size would you have? (.1 - 1gram)
.1g, .15g, .2g, .5g
in what form were you ingesting the mushroom?
capsules, teas, whole, powdered, Honey shine tincture infused with magic
how often did you dose?
intuitively -- as needed
if you were on a protocol, what protocol did you follow?
Mix of fadiman & stamets & intuitive
did you have any support with dosing?
when did you start ingesting mushrooms?
before i became pregnant
Pregnancy
why did you choose to ingest mushrooms before your pregnancy?
I was already familiar with integrating mushrooms in higher doses into my life. Before pregnancy I would use mushrooms multiple times a month to enhance the depths of consciousness. Connection to Spirit & my body.
why did you choose to ingest mushrooms during your pregnancy?
Only a few times, .1-.2g, felt called when connecting with mother earth & baby. Tuning into deeper awareness when drumming or sound bath.
what benefits did you notice in your pregnancy?
After Birth & Breastfeeding
why did you choose to ingest mushrooms after you gave birth?
To continue to weave & integrate the deep & valuable lessons of motherhood. It was a supportive way for me to continue to learn about my journey from maiden to mother. To commune with my ancestors & Creator.
did you ingest mushrooms while breastfeeding?
did you notice any benefits to a) yourself b) to your baby and what were the benefits when ingesting mushrooms while breastfeeding?
Deep connection & awareness to my baby. Knowledge of body positioning. Visions of birth. Dreams communicating with my baby. Felt supported mentally like an internal hug to the nervous system.
did you notice any challenges to a) yourself b) to your baby and what were the benefits when ingesting mushrooms while breastfeeding?
Parenting
what benefits did you notice in your parenting that you attribute to the mushroom?
Patience, awareness of my triggers & how to subtly disengage the reaction, playfulness, dropping into connective play & communication, energetic awareness of my sons energy field when he was operating from his discomfort ability to calm him by tuning into his energy field
what were the unwanted effects or challenges of ingesting mushrooms while parenting?
Taking too heavy of a dose & Tending to child when that dose signaled to the body for need of support. Coming into deep emotional spaces within myself & still needing to tend to my child vs having the space to fully integrate in Solitude. Sensitivity or even lack of patience being brought to the surface.
what benefits have you noticed about your children that you attribute to the mushroom?
Passion, freedom of expression, communicates clearly & has a wide vocabulary, physical capabilities are incredible, clairsentience & psychic abilities unlocked
Summary
what would you like to say to other mothers & pregnant/birthing people about your own experience?
To trust your own body awareness. To follow your intutive guidance & to pray on it. No one can tell you what is best for your body.
would you recommend this path to other people?
Absolutely. Though if they have yet to microdose to have support from someone who is experienced. Whether through the intitial sitting with the medicine or the integration process after.