About the MOTM

Age:
20
Location:
Washington, USA
Mother of:
one
Gender identity:
female
Dosing:
microdose (.1 - 1 gram), mid dose (1-3 grams)
Protocol:
intuitively - as needed

The Story

how many children do you have?
one
how many pregnancies have you had?
1
how old were you when you gave birth?
19
what are your childrens' ages?
1yr
did any of those end in early release? (miscarriage, still birth or abortion?) if so, can you share a little about those experience?
No
what surprised you about the mushroom journey?
How joyous life can be! And how my newborn at the time literally shape-shifted with my body while the rest of the world (and my husband) remained solid. A reflection of how soft and tender babies are as they are so close to the portal of life still. My child had angel eyes all over. When I took a dose almost a year later, he did not shape change.

Protocol & Dosing

with psilocybin, what has been your dosing experience?
microdose (.1 - 1 gram), mid dose (1-3 grams)
how long did you dose for?
one month
if microdosing, what size would you have? (.1 - 1gram)
1g
in what form were you ingesting the mushroom?
whole
how often did you dose?
intuitively -- as needed
if you were on a protocol, what protocol did you follow?
Only took one dose, and then another almost a year later
did you have any support with dosing?
when did you start ingesting mushrooms?
after i gave birth

Pregnancy

why did you choose to ingest mushrooms before your pregnancy?
N/A
why did you choose to ingest mushrooms during your pregnancy?
N/A
what benefits did you notice in your pregnancy?

After Birth & Breastfeeding

why did you choose to ingest mushrooms after you gave birth?
In the first 2 months of postpartum I experienced severe anxiety, depression, and suicidal thoughts. My husband encouraged me to try as a last resort to get me out of my funk. I was so deep in the hole I could not tell I was in one, and he gently nudged me towards taking a trip. I decided why not, I might as well. So glad I did. Absolutely has changed my life and my marriage, and my role as a mama.
did you ingest mushrooms while breastfeeding?
did you notice any benefits to a) yourself b) to your baby and what were the benefits when ingesting mushrooms while breastfeeding?
N/A
did you notice any challenges to a) yourself b) to your baby and what were the benefits when ingesting mushrooms while breastfeeding?

Parenting

what benefits did you notice in your parenting that you attribute to the mushroom?
A sense of complete calmness and peace, knowing that nothing is as serious as the world claims it to be. I find absolute joy in being a mama. I feel intimately connected with my child and the natural world, and am able to parent from a place of a larger sense of oneness with all.
what were the unwanted effects or challenges of ingesting mushrooms while parenting?
Facing myself, the ugly and resentful pieces of myself that I wanted to push down and not acknowledge in parenting. Working through my own childhood traumas of not feeling loved or wanted, isolation.
what benefits have you noticed about your children that you attribute to the mushroom?
I recognize my child as the embodiment of the mushroom, the ultimate teacher. My child's grace, wonder, mystery, joy, and fullness of expression are a reflection of my relationship with psilocybin

Summary

what would you like to say to other mothers & pregnant/birthing people about your own experience?
Follow your intuition, mushroom trips are reflections of yourself and thus are only as scary as you allow them to be. Breathe. Direct your focus where you want to be.
would you recommend this path to other people?
Absolutely. I pray everyone in the world has a chance to try mushrooms at least one in their lives. Absolutely beautiful.
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About the MOTM

Age:
20
Location:
Washington, USA
Mother of:
one
Gender identity:
female
Dosing:
microdose (.1 - 1 gram), mid dose (1-3 grams)
Protocol:
intuitively - as needed
microdose (.1 - 1 gram), mid dose (1-3 grams)
one month
1g
whole
intuitively -- as needed
Only took one dose, and then another almost a year later
after i gave birth

The Story

how many children do you have?
one
how many pregnancies have you had?
1
how old were you when you gave birth?
19
what are your childrens' ages?
1yr
did any of those end in early release? (miscarriage, still birth or abortion?) if so, can you share a little about those experience?
No
what surprised you about the mushroom journey?
How joyous life can be! And how my newborn at the time literally shape-shifted with my body while the rest of the world (and my husband) remained solid. A reflection of how soft and tender babies are as they are so close to the portal of life still. My child had angel eyes all over. When I took a dose almost a year later, he did not shape change.

Protocol & Dosing

with psilocybin, what has been your dosing experience?
microdose (.1 - 1 gram), mid dose (1-3 grams)
how long did you dose for?
one month
if microdosing, what size would you have? (.1 - 1gram)
1g
in what form were you ingesting the mushroom?
whole
how often did you dose?
intuitively -- as needed
if you were on a protocol, what protocol did you follow?
Only took one dose, and then another almost a year later
did you have any support with dosing?
when did you start ingesting mushrooms?
after i gave birth

Pregnancy

why did you choose to ingest mushrooms before your pregnancy?
N/A
why did you choose to ingest mushrooms during your pregnancy?
N/A
what benefits did you notice in your pregnancy?

Postpartum & Breastfeeding

why did you choose to ingest mushrooms after you gave birth?
In the first 2 months of postpartum I experienced severe anxiety, depression, and suicidal thoughts. My husband encouraged me to try as a last resort to get me out of my funk. I was so deep in the hole I could not tell I was in one, and he gently nudged me towards taking a trip. I decided why not, I might as well. So glad I did. Absolutely has changed my life and my marriage, and my role as a mama.
did you ingest mushrooms while breastfeeding?
did you notice any benefits to a) yourself b) to your baby and what were the benefits when ingesting mushrooms while breastfeeding?
N/A
did you notice any challenges to a) yourself b) to your baby and what were the benefits when ingesting mushrooms while breastfeeding?

Parenting

what benefits did you notice in your parenting that you attribute to the mushroom?
A sense of complete calmness and peace, knowing that nothing is as serious as the world claims it to be. I find absolute joy in being a mama. I feel intimately connected with my child and the natural world, and am able to parent from a place of a larger sense of oneness with all.
what were the unwanted effects or challenges of ingesting mushrooms while parenting?
Facing myself, the ugly and resentful pieces of myself that I wanted to push down and not acknowledge in parenting. Working through my own childhood traumas of not feeling loved or wanted, isolation.
what benefits have you noticed about your children that you attribute to the mushroom?
I recognize my child as the embodiment of the mushroom, the ultimate teacher. My child's grace, wonder, mystery, joy, and fullness of expression are a reflection of my relationship with psilocybin

Summary

what would you like to say to other mothers & pregnant/birthing people about your own experience?
Follow your intuition, mushroom trips are reflections of yourself and thus are only as scary as you allow them to be. Breathe. Direct your focus where you want to be.
would you recommend this path to other people?
Absolutely. I pray everyone in the world has a chance to try mushrooms at least one in their lives. Absolutely beautiful.
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