how many children do you have?
one
how many pregnancies have you had?
3
how old were you when you gave birth?
22
what are your childrens' ages?
8
did any of those end in early release? (miscarriage, still birth or abortion?) if so, can you share a little about those experience?
Yes 1 live birth, 1 miscarriage and 1 abortion. I held a lot of trauma pre mushroom because the miscarriage and abortion came post rape.
what surprised you about the mushroom journey?
How easeful healing can be when you’re open to being taught by another spirit.
Protocol & Dosing
with psilocybin, what has been your dosing experience?
microdose (.1 - 1 gram), mid dose (1-3 grams), full dose (3+ grams), high dose (6+ grams)
how long did you dose for?
still dosing
if microdosing, what size would you have? (.1 - 1gram)
.5g, 1g
in what form were you ingesting the mushroom?
capsules, whole, powdered, Infused gunmies
how often did you dose?
intuitively -- as needed
if you were on a protocol, what protocol did you follow?
I dosed intuitively. Often a couple days on then break days but not in line with anyone specific protocol
did you have any support with dosing?
when did you start ingesting mushrooms?
after i gave birth
Pregnancy
why did you choose to ingest mushrooms before your pregnancy?
I ingested after pregnancy and birth.
why did you choose to ingest mushrooms during your pregnancy?
I chose to inject mushroom after all 3 of my pregnancies.
what benefits did you notice in your pregnancy?
Did not injest while pregnant
After Birth & Breastfeeding
why did you choose to ingest mushrooms after you gave birth?
Because I was aware of how much trauma and pain my body was holding from all three of my pregnancy experiences and although I found talk therapy and edmr light therapy helpful it was scratching the surface of what I knew was inside of me.
did you ingest mushrooms while breastfeeding?
No
did you notice any benefits to a) yourself b) to your baby and what were the benefits when ingesting mushrooms while breastfeeding?
Didn’t injest while breastfeeding
did you notice any challenges to a) yourself b) to your baby and what were the benefits when ingesting mushrooms while breastfeeding?
Didn’t injest while breastfeeding
Parenting
what benefits did you notice in your parenting that you attribute to the mushroom?
I was able to process and move through years of trauma and pain I’d accumulated. My mind was clearer, I was able to move forward in life without fear of the flying monkeys that I once let paralyze me and largely my body had integrated the lessons of all these events without clinging to the pain and guilt.
what were the unwanted effects or challenges of ingesting mushrooms while parenting?
The harsh judgements from close family. The looming threat of people in my ethnic community who because of prior associations look to tear me down even if it means throwing uneducated stones about my use of plant medicines for medicinal and spiritual purposes.
what benefits have you noticed about your children that you attribute to the mushroom?
I think my ability to be present and emotional attentive to my son because of moving through large emotions and events with mushrooms hugely benefits how emotionally intelligent he is and will continue to be. His ability to be open honest and freely himself i in some ways attribute to having worked through my own problems to have no attachments to his outcomes and I can gleefully guide him in the process of becoming his most expressive and powerful self.
