how many children do you have?
one
how many pregnancies have you had?
2
how old were you when you gave birth?
21
what are your childrens' ages?
5 months
did any of those end in early release? (miscarriage, still birth or abortion?) if so, can you share a little about those experience?
My first pregnancy I had an abortion in the beginning of 2021. I was 19 and felt too young and not ready for a baby at all. The father is actually the same father of my first and only child(second pregnancy).
Right before I had found out I was pregnant with my current child, I had my first trip. I had microdosed for a short time the year prior but this was my first real trip(3 grams). It was an amazing unexplainable experience that changed my life forever and if I hadn’t had that trip, I feel like I would’ve gotten a second abortion. But this time I felt so ready and now my babe is 5 months and I love him with everything in me. <3
what surprised you about the mushroom journey?
Everything it has shown me. The biggest thing i have learned through microdosing is that we are all running from ourselves.
Protocol & Dosing
with psilocybin, what has been your dosing experience?
microdose (.1 - 1 gram), mid dose (1-3 grams), full dose (3+ grams)
how long did you dose for?
throughout the year
if microdosing, what size would you have? (.1 - 1gram)
.1g, .15g, .2g, .25g, .3g, .5g, 1g
in what form were you ingesting the mushroom?
capsules, whole
how often did you dose?
intuitively -- as needed
if you were on a protocol, what protocol did you follow?
Intuitively
did you have any support with dosing?
when did you start ingesting mushrooms?
before i became pregnant
Pregnancy
why did you choose to ingest mushrooms before your pregnancy?
For my mental health and self-exploration. I’ve struggled with depression + anxiety my entire life and I had read good things about microdosing.
why did you choose to ingest mushrooms during your pregnancy?
For more self-exploration and to be more present. And I know it’d be good for my little babe in my belly too.
what benefits did you notice in your pregnancy?
Greater connection to myself, feeling more present and woman.
After Birth & Breastfeeding
why did you choose to ingest mushrooms after you gave birth?
To connect with myself and my baby more.
did you ingest mushrooms while breastfeeding?
Yes
did you notice any benefits to a) yourself b) to your baby and what were the benefits when ingesting mushrooms while breastfeeding?
Because of microdosing I have felt more connected to my son than ever. I really feel his pain when he cries and I just feel so much more present and understanding of him.
While breastfeeding him I truly now understand the relationship between us and the nourishment he receives from me. The breast not only gives him milk, but LOVE and COMFORT.
did you notice any challenges to a) yourself b) to your baby and what were the benefits when ingesting mushrooms while breastfeeding?
Microdosing has definitely helped me to be more patient with my son and I’m really understanding my anger more. That has been a challenge because my anger stems from pain and a lot of the time I have trouble expressing myself(childhood trauma). But we’re working on it and making progress :)
Parenting
what benefits did you notice in your parenting that you attribute to the mushroom?
Way more patience, understanding, and overall presence. I feel very connected to my son.
what were the unwanted effects or challenges of ingesting mushrooms while parenting?
None! Except maybe nausea lol
what benefits have you noticed about your children that you attribute to the mushroom?
He trusts me more and knows i’m there whenever he needs me. He is such a calm, amazing baby.
Summary
what would you like to say to other mothers & pregnant/birthing people about your own experience?
Microdosing can change the WORLD. It can change the way we interact with others and most of all, our children. When we heal ourselves, our children won’t have to heal from us. exist on this earth for a reason and they are pure medicine <3
would you recommend this path to other people?
YES YES YES!!!!
