how many children do you have?
one
how many pregnancies have you had?
2
how old were you when you gave birth?
28
what are your childrens' ages?
5 months
did any of those end in early release? (miscarriage, still birth or abortion?) if so, can you share a little about those experience?
Yes, first I had an abortion using misoprostol while living in Mexico. Looking back, it sent me into a deep depression that I only came out of once I got pregnant again with the same partner and decided we were finally ready.
what surprised you about the mushroom journey?
That I never felt like I was doing anything wrong, it all felt right.
Protocol & Dosing
with psilocybin, what has been your dosing experience?
full dose (3+ grams)
how long did you dose for?
two months
if microdosing, what size would you have? (.1 - 1gram)
1g
in what form were you ingesting the mushroom?
whole
how often did you dose?
intuitively -- as needed
if you were on a protocol, what protocol did you follow?
Everyday for 1 month, then tapered down and followed intuition
did you have any support with dosing?
when did you start ingesting mushrooms?
during my pregnancy
Pregnancy
why did you choose to ingest mushrooms before your pregnancy?
Just felt called, I had used mushrooms before
why did you choose to ingest mushrooms during your pregnancy?
To help me break out of negative thought patterns and know the difference between fear and intuition. To help me relax and be free and happy. To help bring repressed emotions and thoughts to the surface so I could work through them.
what benefits did you notice in your pregnancy?
After Birth & Breastfeeding
why did you choose to ingest mushrooms after you gave birth?
To proactively fight off post party depression. To encourage me to relax into motherhood. To simply make the days even more fun and find joy in the simple things like listening to music and sitting outside.
did you ingest mushrooms while breastfeeding?
did you notice any benefits to a) yourself b) to your baby and what were the benefits when ingesting mushrooms while breastfeeding?
Relaxation and calm, but I also took a 5g dose which helped me prepare for birth by encouraging me to moan and yell and no longer be silent.
did you notice any challenges to a) yourself b) to your baby and what were the benefits when ingesting mushrooms while breastfeeding?
Parenting
what benefits did you notice in your parenting that you attribute to the mushroom?
General happiness and loving my mom experience much more than my peers. I also freebirthed so that also played a huge part.
what were the unwanted effects or challenges of ingesting mushrooms while parenting?
Finding high quality medicine from a source I trust on an energetic level. I used to grow, but I move a lot and have not been anywhere long enough after birth to grow some more.
what benefits have you noticed about your children that you attribute to the mushroom?
Everyone says my son is super calm and barely cries.
Summary
what would you like to say to other mothers & pregnant/birthing people about your own experience?
If you feel called to it, there’s a reason. Release the shame and follow your intuition.
would you recommend this path to other people?
Yes but only if they’re called to it, I don’t believe it’s for everyone