how many children do you have?
one
how many pregnancies have you had?
3
how old were you when you gave birth?
31
what are your childrens' ages?
Abou to be 2
did any of those end in early release? (miscarriage, still birth or abortion?) if so, can you share a little about those experience?
2 abortions 1 full term pregnancy
what surprised you about the mushroom journey?
How receptive and supportive my partner was.. and how much easier parenting became.. more natural
Protocol & Dosing
with psilocybin, what has been your dosing experience?
microdose (.1 - 1 gram), full dose (3+ grams)
how long did you dose for?
three months or more
if microdosing, what size would you have? (.1 - 1gram)
.1g, .15g
in what form were you ingesting the mushroom?
teas, whole, I made a mushroom honey and chocolate that I would nibble on
how often did you dose?
intuitively -- as needed
if you were on a protocol, what protocol did you follow?
My own, as needed mostly 1-2x a month .. but worked energetically with mushroom spirits
did you have any support with dosing?
when did you start ingesting mushrooms?
before i became pregnant
Pregnancy
why did you choose to ingest mushrooms before your pregnancy?
To help me with my guilt for terminated pregnancy, to connect with nature
why did you choose to ingest mushrooms during your pregnancy?
I was having anxiety, I never had experienced before. I didn’t know what to do … and then one day I remembered that mushrooms exist
what benefits did you notice in your pregnancy?
Creation of life, I never wanted to be a mother. I had so much fear. I felt like I didn’t deserve to create life since I had ended life twice before. I was afraid and felt like I would be tied down. Mushrooms helped me connect to my inner knowing.. to that unconditional love that exists within all life. It made me releAse the fear
After Birth & Breastfeeding
why did you choose to ingest mushrooms after you gave birth?
The days that I felt I didn’t know what I was doing, not having support, having thoughts that I could not care for my baby .. that I wanted to walk away from my situation. I remembered mushrooms. It helped me realign and helped me connect with my baby and motherly spirit
did you ingest mushrooms while breastfeeding?
Yes
did you notice any benefits to a) yourself b) to your baby and what were the benefits when ingesting mushrooms while breastfeeding?
I didn’t feel scared, I felt so confident and connected to my baby. When I dosed. I had more energy, I felt what my baby needed before she cried
did you notice any challenges to a) yourself b) to your baby and what were the benefits when ingesting mushrooms while breastfeeding?
I went months without dosing and I had extreme anxiety
I couldn’t leave my house. I had debilitating thoughts, that something bad would happen. My baby would cry and I felt I just didn’t know what to do. That’s when I decided to start using mushrooms. I kept it a secret because I felt ashamed for using mushrooms to help me cope
Parenting
what benefits did you notice in your parenting that you attribute to the mushroom?
Being completely present and wholeheartedly available. For my baby and my partner
what were the unwanted effects or challenges of ingesting mushrooms while parenting?
The stigma that comes with it. Not telling my partner for the first few months and feeling guilty
what benefits have you noticed about your children that you attribute to the mushroom?
It’s early to tell, but she seems to have regulated emotions. I notice when I dosed and breastfed
She didn’t have any tantrums .. she’s really only ever had 2
Summary
what would you like to say to other mothers & pregnant/birthing people about your own experience?
That we have all the support we need. It’s out there , ask for help. We are not meant to do this alone. And we already have all the knowledge of being a mother right inside of us. We just have to tap into that remembrance
would you recommend this path to other people?
Absolutely! I do it to other mothers who are having PP depression/ anxiety