how many children do you have?
one
how many pregnancies have you had?
3
how old were you when you gave birth?
33
what are your childrens' ages?
2
did any of those end in early release? (miscarriage, still birth or abortion?) if so, can you share a little about those experience?
2 early miscarriages
what surprised you about the mushroom journey?
How it helped me heal my body and nervous system as well, how it gave me wisdom about how to heal my body- including what supplements to take
Protocol & Dosing
with psilocybin, what has been your dosing experience?
microdose (.1 - 1 gram), mid dose (1-3 grams), full dose (3+ grams), high dose (6+ grams)
how long did you dose for?
two months
if microdosing, what size would you have? (.1 - 1gram)
.1g, .2g
in what form were you ingesting the mushroom?
capsules, teas, whole, Chocolates
how often did you dose?
intuitively -- as needed
if you were on a protocol, what protocol did you follow?
2 on, one off
did you have any support with dosing?
when did you start ingesting mushrooms?
before i became pregnant
Pregnancy
why did you choose to ingest mushrooms before your pregnancy?
I was initially called to work with mushrooms due to a spiritual crisis.
why did you choose to ingest mushrooms during your pregnancy?
I took a microdose early on when I was deciding whether or not to carry the pregnancy to term. I had a previous miscarriage, and I felt the spirit from that child was still haunting my womb. I used the mushrooms to support my process of clearing that miscarriage and preparing for the child I eventually carried earthside.
I also took a macrodose when pregnant. I was working with indigenous shamans and they shared that in their tradition, taking mushrooms during pregnancy was an important part of preparing for motherhood. I prayed on it and felt it was the right decision for myself and my baby.
what benefits did you notice in your pregnancy?
Support processing challenging feelings, clarity
After Birth & Breastfeeding
why did you choose to ingest mushrooms after you gave birth?
I took mushrooms during my postpartum because I had very severe postpartum depression and anxiety. I was taking an SSRI but felt I was unable to full heal, only treat the symptoms while taking it. The mushrooms fortified me and gave me the support I needed to actually feel my emotions and process my grief. I noticed a major reduction in my depression and anxiety symptoms.
did you ingest mushrooms while breastfeeding?
Yes
did you notice any benefits to a) yourself b) to your baby and what were the benefits when ingesting mushrooms while breastfeeding?
For myself, ability to feel and process emotions effectively, reduction in depression and anxiety symptoms. I did not notice a difference to my baby directly, but we were able to connect more easily after I started microdosing.
did you notice any challenges to a) yourself b) to your baby and what were the benefits when ingesting mushrooms while breastfeeding?
I did not have any major challenges. Some days, I didn’t have enough space to feel my emotions or I wasn’t in a safe environment to feel my emotions and those days were more challenging.
Parenting
what benefits did you notice in your parenting that you attribute to the mushroom?
More spaciousness with my son, less reactive
what were the unwanted effects or challenges of ingesting mushrooms while parenting?
None
what benefits have you noticed about your children that you attribute to the mushroom?
None
Summary
what would you like to say to other mothers & pregnant/birthing people about your own experience?
I would have microdosed sooner if I had understood how impactful it would be and how much more present it would allow me to be, including processing major trauma that was decreasing my ability to be present with my son. I would have gone straight to mushrooms rather than taking an SSRI if not for the stigma. I don’t regret taking them at all and never once felt like it was an unsafe behavior.
would you recommend this path to other people?
Yes
