did any of those end in early release? (miscarriage, still birth or abortion?) if so, can you share a little about those experience?
Yes. My first pregnancy was a chosen medical abortion. It was not the right time or person to create life with and I chose to end it. I asked that spirit to return to me when the time was right. And he did, again, unexpectedly but with the right father for his spirit. He is my oldest son who is now 3.
what surprised you about the mushroom journey?
The clarity. It always surprises me a bit.
Protocol & Dosing
with psilocybin, what has been your dosing experience?
microdose (.1 - 1 gram), mid dose (1-3 grams)
how long did you dose for?
throughout the year
if microdosing, what size would you have? (.1 - 1gram)
.2g
in what form were you ingesting the mushroom?
whole
how often did you dose?
intuitively -- as needed
if you were on a protocol, what protocol did you follow?
intuitively
did you have any support with dosing?
when did you start ingesting mushrooms?
before i became pregnant
Pregnancy
why did you choose to ingest mushrooms before your pregnancy?
I wanted to connect to myself and to call in my next baby.
why did you choose to ingest mushrooms during your pregnancy?
I chose to microdose during my last pregnancy for many reasons. First, I felt very ill during the first 17 weeks, not typical morning sickness but like something wasn't quite right. So I took medicine to support my mental health and desire to eat during those initial weeks. Once I found out via ultrasound (after measuring 25 cm at 19 weeks), that I was pregnant with twins I understood why I felt so unwell, I wasn't eating for twins, I was eating for a singleton! As pregnancy went on and my plans for a second homebirth with my midwife were shut down, I became increasingly anxious and stressed. Medicine helped to calm my nerves, ease my mind, and connect to my babies, who needed me to be well above all else.
what benefits did you notice in your pregnancy?
More connected to my babies and my birth plan. I trusted that my babies were strong and healthy and it helped me not to succumb to all the medical fears around my pregnancy and birth.
After Birth & Breastfeeding
why did you choose to ingest mushrooms after you gave birth?
Because motherhood with twins and a toddler will try you in ways you didn't expect. Mothering while microdosing allows me to be clear and connected with myself and my children. It invites me to be the mother I love to be and I know that I am without all of the "baggage" that I come with.
did you ingest mushrooms while breastfeeding?
Yes
did you notice any benefits to a) yourself b) to your baby and what were the benefits when ingesting mushrooms while breastfeeding?
Yes. I found myself less overwhelmed and overstimulated and easing into the joy of twin motherhood. This benefitted me and my whole family in so many ways.
did you notice any challenges to a) yourself b) to your baby and what were the benefits when ingesting mushrooms while breastfeeding?
no.
Parenting
what benefits did you notice in your parenting that you attribute to the mushroom?
I was able to be more clear about the mother I am and continue to strive to be. I wasn't mothering from my past, my stress, my anxieties... I was mothering from ease, clarity, and love.
what were the unwanted effects or challenges of ingesting mushrooms while parenting?
none.
what benefits have you noticed about your children that you attribute to the mushroom?
They benefit from a well mother. They are resilient and have solid attachment to me as well as feel comfortable being with other trustworthy adult caregivers.
Summary
what would you like to say to other mothers & pregnant/birthing people about your own experience?
That microdosing was more helpful and supportive than Zoloft. Zoloft left me feeling fuzzy in my mind and like I barely cared about anything. Mushrooms allowed me to feel connected and clear on my purpose as a mother. I became a better mother because of mushrooms.
would you recommend this path to other people?
Yes. And I do, frequently.
About the MOTM
Age:
35
Location:
Living in Dominican Republic, from Washington DC
Mother of:
three
Gender identity:
female
Dosing:
microdose (.1 - 1 gram), mid dose (1-3 grams)
Protocol:
intuitively - as needed
microdose (.1 - 1 gram), mid dose (1-3 grams)
throughout the year
.2g
whole
intuitively -- as needed
intuitively
before i became pregnant
The Story
how many children do you have?
three
how many pregnancies have you had?
3
how old were you when you gave birth?
32
what are your childrens' ages?
3, 1, 1
did any of those end in early release? (miscarriage, still birth or abortion?) if so, can you share a little about those experience?
Yes. My first pregnancy was a chosen medical abortion. It was not the right time or person to create life with and I chose to end it. I asked that spirit to return to me when the time was right. And he did, again, unexpectedly but with the right father for his spirit. He is my oldest son who is now 3.
what surprised you about the mushroom journey?
The clarity. It always surprises me a bit.
Protocol & Dosing
with psilocybin, what has been your dosing experience?
microdose (.1 - 1 gram), mid dose (1-3 grams)
how long did you dose for?
throughout the year
if microdosing, what size would you have? (.1 - 1gram)
.2g
in what form were you ingesting the mushroom?
whole
how often did you dose?
intuitively -- as needed
if you were on a protocol, what protocol did you follow?
intuitively
did you have any support with dosing?
when did you start ingesting mushrooms?
before i became pregnant
Pregnancy
why did you choose to ingest mushrooms before your pregnancy?
I wanted to connect to myself and to call in my next baby.
why did you choose to ingest mushrooms during your pregnancy?
I chose to microdose during my last pregnancy for many reasons. First, I felt very ill during the first 17 weeks, not typical morning sickness but like something wasn't quite right. So I took medicine to support my mental health and desire to eat during those initial weeks. Once I found out via ultrasound (after measuring 25 cm at 19 weeks), that I was pregnant with twins I understood why I felt so unwell, I wasn't eating for twins, I was eating for a singleton! As pregnancy went on and my plans for a second homebirth with my midwife were shut down, I became increasingly anxious and stressed. Medicine helped to calm my nerves, ease my mind, and connect to my babies, who needed me to be well above all else.
what benefits did you notice in your pregnancy?
More connected to my babies and my birth plan. I trusted that my babies were strong and healthy and it helped me not to succumb to all the medical fears around my pregnancy and birth.
Postpartum & Breastfeeding
why did you choose to ingest mushrooms after you gave birth?
Because motherhood with twins and a toddler will try you in ways you didn't expect. Mothering while microdosing allows me to be clear and connected with myself and my children. It invites me to be the mother I love to be and I know that I am without all of the "baggage" that I come with.
did you ingest mushrooms while breastfeeding?
Yes
did you notice any benefits to a) yourself b) to your baby and what were the benefits when ingesting mushrooms while breastfeeding?
Yes. I found myself less overwhelmed and overstimulated and easing into the joy of twin motherhood. This benefitted me and my whole family in so many ways.
did you notice any challenges to a) yourself b) to your baby and what were the benefits when ingesting mushrooms while breastfeeding?
no.
Parenting
what benefits did you notice in your parenting that you attribute to the mushroom?
I was able to be more clear about the mother I am and continue to strive to be. I wasn't mothering from my past, my stress, my anxieties... I was mothering from ease, clarity, and love.
what were the unwanted effects or challenges of ingesting mushrooms while parenting?
none.
what benefits have you noticed about your children that you attribute to the mushroom?
They benefit from a well mother. They are resilient and have solid attachment to me as well as feel comfortable being with other trustworthy adult caregivers.
Summary
what would you like to say to other mothers & pregnant/birthing people about your own experience?
That microdosing was more helpful and supportive than Zoloft. Zoloft left me feeling fuzzy in my mind and like I barely cared about anything. Mushrooms allowed me to feel connected and clear on my purpose as a mother. I became a better mother because of mushrooms.
would you recommend this path to other people?
Yes. And I do, frequently.
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