how many children do you have?
two
how many pregnancies have you had?
5
how old were you when you gave birth?
21 and 24
what are your childrens' ages?
6.5 and 10
did any of those end in early release? (miscarriage, still birth or abortion?) if so, can you share a little about those experience?
3 were aborted
the first time I was 17 and in an abusive relationship. my mother took me but I didn't know that we were heading to a termination. it's caused a lot of trauma and grief.
the second abortion was when my child's father and I were on a break. we ended up getting pregnant but decided it was best for our whole family that we didn't go through with this pregnancy.
the third time I was in grad school, hooked up with someone and the contraception failed. I already had 2 kids, was living with my mum, and knew that this wouldn't be an ideal situation to bring another life into.
what surprised you about the mushroom journey?
it was something I could actually keep consistent
Protocol & Dosing
with psilocybin, what has been your dosing experience?
microdose (.1 - 1 gram), mid dose (1-3 grams), full dose (3+ grams)
how long did you dose for?
throughout the year
if microdosing, what size would you have? (.1 - 1gram)
.15g
in what form were you ingesting the mushroom?
capsules, teas, whole, powdered
how often did you dose?
intuitively -- as needed
if you were on a protocol, what protocol did you follow?
n/a
did you have any support with dosing?
when did you start ingesting mushrooms?
after i gave birth
After Birth & Breastfeeding
why did you choose to ingest mushrooms after you gave birth?
I needed ways to live with my depression. i was interested in the medicine long before I ever ingested the medicine. I knew that it would be an avenue that helped me.
did you ingest mushrooms while breastfeeding?
Yes
did you notice any benefits to a) yourself b) to your baby and what were the benefits when ingesting mushrooms while breastfeeding?
for me i experienced clarity. patience. empathy. sense of purpose. happiness.
my baby I feel like now has a deepened sense of clarity and empathy for others
did you notice any challenges to a) yourself b) to your baby and what were the benefits when ingesting mushrooms while breastfeeding?
same as above
Parenting
what benefits did you notice in your parenting that you attribute to the mushroom?
my patience is highly attributed to the mushroom. I actually wanted to play with them rather than just tolerating the experience and feeling like I had to.
what were the unwanted effects or challenges of ingesting mushrooms while parenting?
none
what benefits have you noticed about your children that you attribute to the mushroom?
my children are highly intelligent, highly emotional, and highly intuitive