how many children do you have?
one
how many pregnancies have you had?
1
how old were you when you gave birth?
31
what are your childrens' ages?
8months
did any of those end in early release? (miscarriage, still birth or abortion?) if so, can you share a little about those experience?
I had an abortion in 2016. It was a pregnancy with my longtime partner. We were not financially ready as I was in graduate school and he just started his first full time job. He is the father of my child now and we feel it was very aligned for our life and path. We both still think it was the best decision for us.
what surprised you about the mushroom journey?
How much I can trust my intuition a the earth to support me on this journey.
Protocol & Dosing
with psilocybin, what has been your dosing experience?
microdose (.1 - 1 gram)
how long did you dose for?
throughout the year, still dosing
if microdosing, what size would you have? (.1 - 1gram)
.1g, .15g
in what form were you ingesting the mushroom?
powdered
how often did you dose?
intuitively -- as needed
if you were on a protocol, what protocol did you follow?
The most effective protocol I have ever did was with the James fadman. It helped me have space to integrate the lessons and I didn’t have any crashes.
did you have any support with dosing?
when did you start ingesting mushrooms?
during my pregnancy
Pregnancy
why did you choose to ingest mushrooms before your pregnancy?
i have had a microdose practice for assisting in my depression. I found it profound to move through heavy feelings and it really helped me connect back with myself and my intuition. I noticed a huge difference in my depression and felt so much more happy and aligned.
why did you choose to ingest mushrooms during your pregnancy?
I have used this medicine both while pregnant and currently while breast feeding. I chose to do this during pregnancy to call of the psilocybin spirit to help with my anxiety around birth and miscarriage. I sat in ceremony with a micro dose talking to my baby and talking to him. I used this ceremony as a way to work as team with my baby for birth and connect on multiple frequencies.
what benefits did you notice in your pregnancy?
Trust in myself and my body. Better mood and more connection to my baby.
After Birth & Breastfeeding
why did you choose to ingest mushrooms after you gave birth?
I was experiencing some post partum depression and. I know it would help me with those heavy feelings. I did notice a difference in my mood and felt like I could show up better as a mom.
did you ingest mushrooms while breastfeeding?
Yes
did you notice any benefits to a) yourself b) to your baby and what were the benefits when ingesting mushrooms while breastfeeding?
Yes. Felt closer to baby and happier as a mom. I felt like I could connect to him more and my depression was lessened.
did you notice any challenges to a) yourself b) to your baby and what were the benefits when ingesting mushrooms while breastfeeding?
Anxiety around getting my baby taken away if anyone found out. Some anxiety around the effects with my baby but I came back to trust and knew this was a fear society put on me. The greatest fear was losing my child through the government system.
Parenting
what benefits did you notice in your parenting that you attribute to the mushroom?
My mood, my capacity and my grounded ness.
what were the unwanted effects or challenges of ingesting mushrooms while parenting?
I didn’t notice any. The anxiety around the system was the only thing I really noticed.
what benefits have you noticed about your children that you attribute to the mushroom?
I didn’t really notice much except for the fact I was able to be more present which I think support safety and comfort my baby felt.