how many children do you have?
one
how many pregnancies have you had?
1
how old were you when you gave birth?
31
what are your childrens' ages?
2
did any of those end in early release? (miscarriage, still birth or abortion?) if so, can you share a little about those experience?
No
what surprised you about the mushroom journey?
Not much. Small enough amounts don't even notice. We went to music festival envision which was tons of fun after being totally isolated at home postpartum forevermore. I took mid doses everyday and didn't experience any visuals or anything but it was incredibly fun and I had so much energy!
Protocol & Dosing
with psilocybin, what has been your dosing experience?
microdose (.1 - 1 gram), mid dose (1-3 grams)
how long did you dose for?
throughout the year
if microdosing, what size would you have? (.1 - 1gram)
.1g, .2g, .25g, .3g, .5g, 1g
in what form were you ingesting the mushroom?
capsules, whole, powdered
how often did you dose?
intuitively -- as needed
if you were on a protocol, what protocol did you follow?
No protocol
did you have any support with dosing?
when did you start ingesting mushrooms?
before i became pregnant
Pregnancy
why did you choose to ingest mushrooms before your pregnancy?
Spiritual growth. Expansion of my awareness and capacity to be present. Emotional release. Trauma healing and Release. Expanded and balanced mindset. Relief from anxiety.
why did you choose to ingest mushrooms during your pregnancy?
I micro and mid dosed during pregnancy. Mushrooms. As well as 1 full on ayahuasca ceremony and 1 microdose ayahuasca ceremony, and 1 peyote ceremony taking the amount pregnant indigenous women generally consume. I did so because it intuitively felt right. It helped me to release my overwhelm and fully accept my circumstance of pregnancy and to feel more confident and joyful and concrete about my decision to create a family in that moment with my partner. It helped me to feel more connected to my partner, my body and my baby. Release anxiety and stress. Open my heart.
what benefits did you notice in your pregnancy?
Fearless mindset. Acceptance. Trust. Surrender. Altered states of consciousness. Connection. Empowerment. Love. Heart centeredness. Tuned into my body and my baby and my partner.
After Birth & Breastfeeding
why did you choose to ingest mushrooms after you gave birth?
Relief from postpartum depression and anxiety. To be more on my child's level of awareness and presence. To come back into my heart. To feel more joy and liberation.
did you ingest mushrooms while breastfeeding?
Yes
did you notice any benefits to a) yourself b) to your baby and what were the benefits when ingesting mushrooms while breastfeeding?
Tuned in. Elevated mood. Slowing down monkey mind. Less focus on task list and more on being present with myself and my baby and nature surrounding us.
did you notice any challenges to a) yourself b) to your baby and what were the benefits when ingesting mushrooms while breastfeeding?
If I took too large of a dose I could feel overly sensitive and over stimulated to also be breastfeeding. Once took a gram at an ecstatic dance at the beach with my baby and felt overwhelmed and worried about caretaking in this environment. Became anxious.
Parenting
what benefits did you notice in your parenting that you attribute to the mushroom?
Im not sure. Haven't done it super often or consistently enough. Will try again and report back.
what were the unwanted effects or challenges of ingesting mushrooms while parenting?
Overwhelm and overstimulation being extra sensitive in my body senses.if too high dose
what benefits have you noticed about your children that you attribute to the mushroom?
My child is a serious medicine curandero in the making. 100% organic starseed incredibly beyond belief. I am sure they guided me toward these ceremonies and motherhood. I believe these medicine children have higher intelligence and connection and tuned more into the divine frequencies.
Summary
what would you like to say to other mothers & pregnant/birthing people about your own experience?
My elder midwife who works with many ayahuasceros says she feels its good to tune in with yourseld when considering if you should cosume plant medicines while pregnant. If you used them before pregnancy then chances are you pass along your immunity to your children. Dont try wild new things for the first time when youee pregnant as a general rule of thumb. Also omg with ayahuasca your baby purges in the womb while you sit in ceremony. Confirmed by my dear sisster who did 10 aya ceremonies pregnant and spoke with midwives around the world who validated her experience. When baby is born it is common for them to be covered in black from the purging but the babies likely know not to breathe it in. Theyve done this before. Incredible.
would you recommend this path to other people?
Yes. The warriors.
