how many children do you have?
four
how many pregnancies have you had?
10
how old were you when you gave birth?
18, 27, 36, 37
what are your childrens' ages?
15,17,26,35
did any of those end in early release? (miscarriage, still birth or abortion?) if so, can you share a little about those experience?
2 still birth 4 miscarriage 4 children
what surprised you about the mushroom journey?
I made it.
Protocol & Dosing
with psilocybin, what has been your dosing experience?
microdose (.1 - 1 gram), mid dose (1-3 grams), full dose (3+ grams), high dose (6+ grams)
how long did you dose for?
still dosing
if microdosing, what size would you have? (.1 - 1gram)
.15g
in what form were you ingesting the mushroom?
whole
how often did you dose?
intuitively -- as needed
if you were on a protocol, what protocol did you follow?
Took as needed intuitive
did you have any support with dosing?
no support or research, mostly my own intuition
when did you start ingesting mushrooms?
after i gave birth
Pregnancy
why did you choose to ingest mushrooms before your pregnancy?
They have been able to pull me out of darker worlds
why did you choose to ingest mushrooms during your pregnancy?
I did not
what benefits did you notice in your pregnancy?
I don't during pregnancy
After Birth & Breastfeeding
why did you choose to ingest mushrooms after you gave birth?
I would microdose way before anyone microdosed. My last two children I was coming out of a dark world after helping the FBI put my father in prison for being a pedophile. I fell in drugs hard and my relationship with their father was nothing short of brutal. I was with their Father 16 years . The mushrooms kept seeing the beauty in the world and in my children. They kept me pushing forwarded. We would have endless bike rides together, nature walks, camping trips and I would tell them stories of beautiful places waiting for us. It worked. It kept me in a childlike state of play with my children and I wasnt faltered by what our reality was, well at least for the most part. It kept me focusing on brighter days. With my children we would dance with the starts and run with the wind. It gave me strength. We ran away to Colorado on an idea of this new place. It was just like the stories I would tell. I owe my whole life to mushrooms. I wasn't sure if we would make it We did. I opened a store mushroom themed in honor of our success. I am forever grateful for their helping hand. My kids are very successful.
did you ingest mushrooms while breastfeeding?
Yes
did you notice any benefits to a) yourself b) to your baby and what were the benefits when ingesting mushrooms while breastfeeding?
I'd say heightened physical feelings and I never noticed anything with the kids I was breastfeeding both children at same time ( my last two)
did you notice any challenges to a) yourself b) to your baby and what were the benefits when ingesting mushrooms while breastfeeding?
No
Parenting
what benefits did you notice in your parenting that you attribute to the mushroom?
Much more connected to my children
what were the unwanted effects or challenges of ingesting mushrooms while parenting?
None
what benefits have you noticed about your children that you attribute to the mushroom?
They are amazing beautiful souls. They think nothing of the mushrooms it's just what I have always done
Summary
what would you like to say to other mothers & pregnant/birthing people about your own experience?
I have a mom that is choosing to microdose while pregnant and she has 2 other toddlers. She has never done drugs. She almost lost her last due to stress. She says it has saved her life and made her a better mom. The Dr.s would've had her on antidepressants but she chose this path on her own instead.
would you recommend this path to other people?
Oh just answered that. Most definitely!
