About the MOTM

Age:
31
Location:
Chumash Territory, Oxnard Ca
Mother of:
one
Gender identity:
female
Dosing:
microdose (.1 - 1 gram), full dose (3+ grams)
Protocol:
intuitively - as needed

The Story

how many children do you have?
one
how many pregnancies have you had?
2
how old were you when you gave birth?
30
what are your childrens' ages?
16 months
did any of those end in early release? (miscarriage, still birth or abortion?) if so, can you share a little about those experience?
Miscarriage at 10weeks, I am grateful for that experience but at the time it was really difficult as there seemed to be no empathy or support for these experiences, it was just hush and move on. I seeked help for myself by learning through a doula program at my local university, not at all intending to be a doula myself but more so to heal and seek assurance. I am not 5 years into birth support and have been supporting many throughout the birth continuum and a full spectrum of reproductive choices/ experiences. I felt a deep sense of loneliness and I turned to what i knew reconnected me to source/ self, weed and mushrooms. They have both been a mental health tool that helps me to navigate a bit vs starting stuck and or not wanting to release. I have since had my baby girl, Xik’nal and again, so grateful for the time and I also Micro-dosed during my postpartum period but it wasn’t enough I don’t feel, as I was afraid of judgement for doing more.
what surprised you about the mushroom journey?
That many other mothers do it and need it

Protocol & Dosing

with psilocybin, what has been your dosing experience?
microdose (.1 - 1 gram), full dose (3+ grams)
how long did you dose for?
two months
if microdosing, what size would you have? (.1 - 1gram)
.1g, .2g, .5g
in what form were you ingesting the mushroom?
capsules, whole, powdered
how often did you dose?
intuitively -- as needed
if you were on a protocol, what protocol did you follow?
My own intuition
did you have any support with dosing?
when did you start ingesting mushrooms?
after i gave birth

Pregnancy

why did you choose to ingest mushrooms before your pregnancy?
Because it was just me I had to worry about and hear external noise about. Once I was pregnant the lack of support in this area got louder and their eyes felt sharper.
why did you choose to ingest mushrooms during your pregnancy?
Because my babies father was in and out of the relationship, he left me 3 times and I was just so lost I felt hopeless and while carrying a child I wanted them to know we Can transmite this pain together so it wouldn’t be such a trauma on my baby
what benefits did you notice in your pregnancy?
I think it delayed my postpartum depression or it really helped with it s

After Birth & Breastfeeding

why did you choose to ingest mushrooms after you gave birth?
The same reasons as a above, the father came back but I wasn’t feeling safe anymore and just feared him leaving again so I felt I had to get stronger for myself and my baby in case he did
did you ingest mushrooms while breastfeeding?
No
did you notice any benefits to a) yourself b) to your baby and what were the benefits when ingesting mushrooms while breastfeeding?
She is so so smart and always ahead of her milestones if not right on time I felt better about myself for a good period
did you notice any challenges to a) yourself b) to your baby and what were the benefits when ingesting mushrooms while breastfeeding?
Not that I correlated with microdosing

Parenting

what benefits did you notice in your parenting that you attribute to the mushroom?
Calmness, playful and less in my head. More presente and connection with myself and my baby
what were the unwanted effects or challenges of ingesting mushrooms while parenting?
The fear of if it’s a good idea to do or not cuz again all the outside judgmental noise
what benefits have you noticed about your children that you attribute to the mushroom?
N/a

Summary

what would you like to say to other mothers & pregnant/birthing people about your own experience?
Follow your intuition, not the loud external noise. Breathe out all the self judgement and breathe into yourself more clarity and trust that your doing a good thing for yourself and your family
would you recommend this path to other people?
Yes
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About the MOTM

Age:
31
Location:
Chumash Territory, Oxnard Ca
Mother of:
one
Gender identity:
female
Dosing:
microdose (.1 - 1 gram), full dose (3+ grams)
Protocol:
intuitively - as needed
microdose (.1 - 1 gram), full dose (3+ grams)
two months
.1g, .2g, .5g
capsules, whole, powdered
intuitively -- as needed
My own intuition
after i gave birth

The Story

how many children do you have?
one
how many pregnancies have you had?
2
how old were you when you gave birth?
30
what are your childrens' ages?
16 months
did any of those end in early release? (miscarriage, still birth or abortion?) if so, can you share a little about those experience?
Miscarriage at 10weeks, I am grateful for that experience but at the time it was really difficult as there seemed to be no empathy or support for these experiences, it was just hush and move on. I seeked help for myself by learning through a doula program at my local university, not at all intending to be a doula myself but more so to heal and seek assurance. I am not 5 years into birth support and have been supporting many throughout the birth continuum and a full spectrum of reproductive choices/ experiences. I felt a deep sense of loneliness and I turned to what i knew reconnected me to source/ self, weed and mushrooms. They have both been a mental health tool that helps me to navigate a bit vs starting stuck and or not wanting to release. I have since had my baby girl, Xik’nal and again, so grateful for the time and I also Micro-dosed during my postpartum period but it wasn’t enough I don’t feel, as I was afraid of judgement for doing more.
what surprised you about the mushroom journey?
That many other mothers do it and need it

Protocol & Dosing

with psilocybin, what has been your dosing experience?
microdose (.1 - 1 gram), full dose (3+ grams)
how long did you dose for?
two months
if microdosing, what size would you have? (.1 - 1gram)
.1g, .2g, .5g
in what form were you ingesting the mushroom?
capsules, whole, powdered
how often did you dose?
intuitively -- as needed
if you were on a protocol, what protocol did you follow?
My own intuition
did you have any support with dosing?
when did you start ingesting mushrooms?
after i gave birth

Pregnancy

why did you choose to ingest mushrooms before your pregnancy?
Because it was just me I had to worry about and hear external noise about. Once I was pregnant the lack of support in this area got louder and their eyes felt sharper.
why did you choose to ingest mushrooms during your pregnancy?
Because my babies father was in and out of the relationship, he left me 3 times and I was just so lost I felt hopeless and while carrying a child I wanted them to know we Can transmite this pain together so it wouldn’t be such a trauma on my baby
what benefits did you notice in your pregnancy?
I think it delayed my postpartum depression or it really helped with it s

Postpartum & Breastfeeding

why did you choose to ingest mushrooms after you gave birth?
The same reasons as a above, the father came back but I wasn’t feeling safe anymore and just feared him leaving again so I felt I had to get stronger for myself and my baby in case he did
did you ingest mushrooms while breastfeeding?
No
did you notice any benefits to a) yourself b) to your baby and what were the benefits when ingesting mushrooms while breastfeeding?
She is so so smart and always ahead of her milestones if not right on time I felt better about myself for a good period
did you notice any challenges to a) yourself b) to your baby and what were the benefits when ingesting mushrooms while breastfeeding?
Not that I correlated with microdosing

Parenting

what benefits did you notice in your parenting that you attribute to the mushroom?
Calmness, playful and less in my head. More presente and connection with myself and my baby
what were the unwanted effects or challenges of ingesting mushrooms while parenting?
The fear of if it’s a good idea to do or not cuz again all the outside judgmental noise
what benefits have you noticed about your children that you attribute to the mushroom?
N/a

Summary

what would you like to say to other mothers & pregnant/birthing people about your own experience?
Follow your intuition, not the loud external noise. Breathe out all the self judgement and breathe into yourself more clarity and trust that your doing a good thing for yourself and your family
would you recommend this path to other people?
Yes
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