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microdose (.1 - 1 gram), full dose (3+ grams)

Before pregnancy and motherhood I utilized microdosing (and larger doses) very occasionally and more often in social circumstances such as music events or bonfire settings, it was through a recreational approach I was introduced to microdosing, but immediately sensed something much deeper was at work. I only began to explore a more intentional and spiritually connected aspects of mushrooms as medicine and later on.

To stave off and ultimately reprogram anxious thinking. I, like so many women, have struggled to stay in the present moment and I felt I was robbing myself of precious time with my children. I was physically with them, but my mind and emotions were often consumed by self criticism or endless lists of to-dos. I have always had a deep aversion to conventional pharmaceuticals in most circumstances, and that was not a path I was willing to walk. I also wanted something that I could schedule on as as needed basis and did not want or feel the need for daily intervention. Ultimately, I chose to microdose in an attempt to rebuild/ renovate my though patterns. Specifically, To reset priorities and relax about things that ultimately don’t add to the quality of my life, or the lives of those in my family. As mother, I am the energetic epicentre of my family and if I am not feeling content, regulated, connected, or balanced, it is very difficult for anyone else to feel that way. Life is deeply wondrous, but one must get out of their own way in order to feel into the magical and miraculous nature of life. To stay rooted. To enhance connection to the present moment and to the wonder of aliveness. To enable the greatest possibility of allowing myself to be playful. To meet my children where they are rather than getting pulled into the torrent of the modern lifestyle which emphasizes productivity above all else. To stay connected with the sense that by being, I am enough (and just what my children need). Microdosing has made it possible for me to learn to shift lanes off of the neural superhighway of achievement focused life (which involves considerable anxiety and self doubt) and has enabled exploration of the tributaries off of that superhighway. Once I could take the exit ramps with the support of microdosing, I could more easefully arrive in radical presence with my children and in my life more broadly. Microdosing has helped repair my mothering instincts that were strategically injured by the over culture and has helped to deeply amplified my inner knowing and trust in my instincts. Dangerous stuff!

Enhanced presence and enhanced patience. An ability to enter into play without distraction. Energy to do the things we love as less energy is wasted on spinning in worries about tasks or in the tasks themselves. Microdosing helps me to stay rooted. To enhance connection to the present moment and to the wonder of aliveness. To enable the greatest possibility of allowing myself to be playful. To meet my children where they are rather than getting pulled into the torrent of the modern lifestyle which emphasizes productivity above all else. To stay connected with the sense that by being, I am enough (and just what my children need). Microdosing has made it possible for me to learn to shift lanes off of the neural superhighway of achievement focused life (which involves considerable anxiety and self doubt) and has enabled exploration of the tributaries off of that superhighway. Once I could take the exit ramps with the support of microdosing, I could more easefully arrive in radical presence with my children and in my life more broadly. Microdosing has helped repair my mothering instincts that were strategically injured by the over culture and has helped to deeply amplified my inner knowing and trust in my instincts. Dangerous stuff!

In my experience, micro-dosing can be a beautiful self care ritual and the benefits are felt by the entire family.