how many children do you have?
two
how many pregnancies have you had?
2
how old were you when you gave birth?
30 and 35
what are your childrens' ages?
5 and 2 months old
did any of those end in early release? (miscarriage, still birth or abortion?) if so, can you share a little about those experience?
No
what surprised you about the mushroom journey?
How much it makes me feel like me again. I’m always surprised at how authentic I feel when I dose. Like the mushrooms filter out what is and isn’t meant for me.
Protocol & Dosing
with psilocybin, what has been your dosing experience?
microdose (.1 - 1 gram)
how long did you dose for?
still dosing
if microdosing, what size would you have? (.1 - 1gram)
.15g, .25g
in what form were you ingesting the mushroom?
capsules
how often did you dose?
intuitively -- as needed
if you were on a protocol, what protocol did you follow?
Once a week
did you have any support with dosing?
friends/ relatives/ community member guidance, only my own research, found online resources
when did you start ingesting mushrooms?
before i became pregnant
Pregnancy
why did you choose to ingest mushrooms before your pregnancy?
I started micro dosing to reduce my anxiety & work through some childhood trauma.
why did you choose to ingest mushrooms during your pregnancy?
I did not have access to mushrooms during my pregnancy.
what benefits did you notice in your pregnancy?
Clarity, patience, calm, presence, gratitude, creative side comes through, my anxiety level decreases. Helps so much with the overstimulation.
After Birth & Breastfeeding
why did you choose to ingest mushrooms after you gave birth?
I chose to start micro dosing with my second because my post partum hit me like a truck. The transition from 1 to 2 was surprisingly hard and I was struggling to function. I knew I needed help being present, patient, and calm. The mushrooms helped tremendously and I feel they saved my life. They help me feel so much gratitude. I feel more patient with my babies and like I have more to be thankful for. It’s an entire perspective shift.
did you ingest mushrooms while breastfeeding?
Yes
did you notice any benefits to a) yourself b) to your baby and what were the benefits when ingesting mushrooms while breastfeeding?
All of the above benefits for me and for baby, I’d say she’s sleeping a lot longer at night & seems a lot happier since I stared dosing
did you notice any challenges to a) yourself b) to your baby and what were the benefits when ingesting mushrooms while breastfeeding?
Mostly the guilt of the unknown. The guilt of wanting to help my mental health; knowing the mushrooms will help, yet feeling guilty because of the unknown effects on babies… and a whole hell of a lot of judgement from others.
Parenting
what benefits did you notice in your parenting that you attribute to the mushroom?
Patience !!!!!!!
what were the unwanted effects or challenges of ingesting mushrooms while parenting?
Sometimes I’ll have flashbacks of my trauma , I’ve noticed the mushrooms help me to remember things I’ve blacked out. Having the flashbacks with my kids can be hard but I remember to stay in the moment.
what benefits have you noticed about your children that you attribute to the mushroom?
N/a
Summary
what would you like to say to other mothers & pregnant/birthing people about your own experience?
Don’t be afraid to do things that are unconventional. I was startled at how many medical professionals tried to push SSRIs on me while pregnant and breastfeeding and I’ve done tons of research on SSRI damage . There’s actual data saying it harms people yet it’s all drs will recommend. They won’t even hear you out when you talk about plant medicine .be your own advocate and do what’s right for you, with or without anyone’s blessing.
would you recommend this path to other people?
Yes absolutely. I recommend mushrooms to everyone who will listen.