how many children do you have?
one
how many pregnancies have you had?
3
how old were you when you gave birth?
31
what are your childrens' ages?
8 months
did any of those end in early release? (miscarriage, still birth or abortion?) if so, can you share a little about those experience?
1 miscarriage with my now husband 7 years ago
1 abortion with an ex boyfriend, I was in an abusive relationship at the time and he influenced me to get an abortion
1 happy healthy baby boy with my husband that was born in October of 2022. I was hoping for natural birth and ended up having to have a C-section.
what surprised you about the mushroom journey?
How it truly saved my life with postpartum journey
Protocol & Dosing
with psilocybin, what has been your dosing experience?
microdose (.1 - 1 gram)
how long did you dose for?
three months or more
if microdosing, what size would you have? (.1 - 1gram)
.1g
in what form were you ingesting the mushroom?
capsules
how often did you dose?
intuitively -- as needed
if you were on a protocol, what protocol did you follow?
james fadiman - one day on, two days off
did you have any support with dosing?
when did you start ingesting mushrooms?
before i became pregnant
Pregnancy
why did you choose to ingest mushrooms before your pregnancy?
For healing sexual trauma
Reconnecting to my feelings
why did you choose to ingest mushrooms during your pregnancy?
I didn’t microdose during pregnancy, tho I wish I did because I suffered from anxiety
what benefits did you notice in your pregnancy?
N/A
After Birth & Breastfeeding
why did you choose to ingest mushrooms after you gave birth?
Because I had a traumatic birth that led to experiencing post partum anxiety, depression, and PTSD
did you ingest mushrooms while breastfeeding?
Yes
did you notice any benefits to a) yourself b) to your baby and what were the benefits when ingesting mushrooms while breastfeeding?
A) I noticed a more heightened awareness. More patience with myself and my son. Less intrusive thoughts, an overall better outlook on life and motherhood.
B) I didn’t notice anything different in my son. He’s generally a very happy baby
did you notice any challenges to a) yourself b) to your baby and what were the benefits when ingesting mushrooms while breastfeeding?
None at all to either me or baby
Parenting
what benefits did you notice in your parenting that you attribute to the mushroom?
I am much more calm, grounded. And patient when I microdose. I have more gratitude towards life and more empathy towards myself.
what were the unwanted effects or challenges of ingesting mushrooms while parenting?
None
what benefits have you noticed about your children that you attribute to the mushroom?
N/A
Summary
what would you like to say to other mothers & pregnant/birthing people about your own experience?
If it’s possible for me, it is for you too.
would you recommend this path to other people?
Absolutely, thank you for doing this to spread the message. If only we focused on the natural path rather than prescribing harmful medications to new moms.