About the MOTM

Age:
26
Location:
Arizona
Mother of:
two
Gender identity:
non-binary
Dosing:
microdose (.1 - 1 gram), mid dose (1-3 grams), full dose (3+ grams)
Protocol:
intuitively - as needed

The Story

how many children do you have?
two
how many pregnancies have you had?
3
how old were you when you gave birth?
23 & 24
what are your childrens' ages?
2 1/2 & 3 1/2
did any of those end in early release? (miscarriage, still birth or abortion?) if so, can you share a little about those experience?
Yes. I was 17 and in a very toxic relationship. Suffered tremendous isolation, and went through alot psychedelic healing around this time. Began to form a relationship with psilocybin, and looked inward for the strength to find myself as an individual, again. Left the relationship a year later.
what surprised you about the mushroom journey?
The levels of empowering my body and mind. I am so gratefully connected to my essence, and I accredit the teachings of mushrooms immensely. They brought me home to myself in a way I was desperately seeking.

Protocol & Dosing

with psilocybin, what has been your dosing experience?
microdose (.1 - 1 gram), mid dose (1-3 grams), full dose (3+ grams)
how long did you dose for?
still dosing
if microdosing, what size would you have? (.1 - 1gram)
1g
in what form were you ingesting the mushroom?
whole
how often did you dose?
intuitively -- as needed
if you were on a protocol, what protocol did you follow?
No protocol
did you have any support with dosing?
when did you start ingesting mushrooms?
before i became pregnant

Pregnancy

why did you choose to ingest mushrooms before your pregnancy?
A form of coming home to myself, and exploring my mind and body without judgement. I experienced an eating disorder along with intense anxiety and depression, and never felt medicating myself was for me. I was introduced to mushrooms and found a lot of freedom in being my authentic self with out self-limiting beliefs I had.
why did you choose to ingest mushrooms during your pregnancy?
Never did, only because I never thought to. I would have if I knew it was available. I had a very emotionally turbulent time both pregnancies, and I feel I could've found some assistance coming into my new role, with a teacher such as psilocybin.
what benefits did you notice in your pregnancy?
N/a

After Birth & Breastfeeding

why did you choose to ingest mushrooms after you gave birth?
My boys deserve a mama who can meet them at their level. I can play with them when I'm tapped in, and I feel a sense of connectedness that I don't always feel without the mushrooms. Not to say it's a given, because I don't always have the same experience. More often than not I just feel a child-like essence emitting through me.
did you ingest mushrooms while breastfeeding?
Yes
did you notice any benefits to a) yourself b) to your baby and what were the benefits when ingesting mushrooms while breastfeeding?
I felt we were connected just as much as ever.
did you notice any challenges to a) yourself b) to your baby and what were the benefits when ingesting mushrooms while breastfeeding?
I was worried he would be affected just as much as I would, but found peace in knowing he wasn't in harms way if there was any crossover. I watched him with much intent, and only noticed he was drinking and while we were eye-locked, his pupils were growing and shrinking, which I had never seen before.

Parenting

what benefits did you notice in your parenting that you attribute to the mushroom?
I feel a release of pressure, and a sense of peace that's not always present when caretaking for my two toddlers. Life can be pretty hectic, and when I have ingested mushrooms, I can roll with the punches in a more ease full manner.
what were the unwanted effects or challenges of ingesting mushrooms while parenting?
Sometimes I struggle completely surrendering to the psilocybin.
what benefits have you noticed about your children that you attribute to the mushroom?
They enjoy my presence being more free flowing.

Summary

what would you like to say to other mothers & pregnant/birthing people about your own experience?
Give yourself more benefit of the doubt. Trust the process.
would you recommend this path to other people?
If you are seeking alignment to yourself in any capacity, without a doubt.
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About the MOTM

Age:
26
Location:
Arizona
Mother of:
two
Gender identity:
non-binary
Dosing:
microdose (.1 - 1 gram), mid dose (1-3 grams), full dose (3+ grams)
Protocol:
intuitively - as needed
microdose (.1 - 1 gram), mid dose (1-3 grams), full dose (3+ grams)
still dosing
1g
whole
intuitively -- as needed
No protocol
before i became pregnant

The Story

how many children do you have?
two
how many pregnancies have you had?
3
how old were you when you gave birth?
23 & 24
what are your childrens' ages?
2 1/2 & 3 1/2
did any of those end in early release? (miscarriage, still birth or abortion?) if so, can you share a little about those experience?
Yes. I was 17 and in a very toxic relationship. Suffered tremendous isolation, and went through alot psychedelic healing around this time. Began to form a relationship with psilocybin, and looked inward for the strength to find myself as an individual, again. Left the relationship a year later.
what surprised you about the mushroom journey?
The levels of empowering my body and mind. I am so gratefully connected to my essence, and I accredit the teachings of mushrooms immensely. They brought me home to myself in a way I was desperately seeking.

Protocol & Dosing

with psilocybin, what has been your dosing experience?
microdose (.1 - 1 gram), mid dose (1-3 grams), full dose (3+ grams)
how long did you dose for?
still dosing
if microdosing, what size would you have? (.1 - 1gram)
1g
in what form were you ingesting the mushroom?
whole
how often did you dose?
intuitively -- as needed
if you were on a protocol, what protocol did you follow?
No protocol
did you have any support with dosing?
when did you start ingesting mushrooms?
before i became pregnant

Pregnancy

why did you choose to ingest mushrooms before your pregnancy?
A form of coming home to myself, and exploring my mind and body without judgement. I experienced an eating disorder along with intense anxiety and depression, and never felt medicating myself was for me. I was introduced to mushrooms and found a lot of freedom in being my authentic self with out self-limiting beliefs I had.
why did you choose to ingest mushrooms during your pregnancy?
Never did, only because I never thought to. I would have if I knew it was available. I had a very emotionally turbulent time both pregnancies, and I feel I could've found some assistance coming into my new role, with a teacher such as psilocybin.
what benefits did you notice in your pregnancy?
N/a

Postpartum & Breastfeeding

why did you choose to ingest mushrooms after you gave birth?
My boys deserve a mama who can meet them at their level. I can play with them when I'm tapped in, and I feel a sense of connectedness that I don't always feel without the mushrooms. Not to say it's a given, because I don't always have the same experience. More often than not I just feel a child-like essence emitting through me.
did you ingest mushrooms while breastfeeding?
Yes
did you notice any benefits to a) yourself b) to your baby and what were the benefits when ingesting mushrooms while breastfeeding?
I felt we were connected just as much as ever.
did you notice any challenges to a) yourself b) to your baby and what were the benefits when ingesting mushrooms while breastfeeding?
I was worried he would be affected just as much as I would, but found peace in knowing he wasn't in harms way if there was any crossover. I watched him with much intent, and only noticed he was drinking and while we were eye-locked, his pupils were growing and shrinking, which I had never seen before.

Parenting

what benefits did you notice in your parenting that you attribute to the mushroom?
I feel a release of pressure, and a sense of peace that's not always present when caretaking for my two toddlers. Life can be pretty hectic, and when I have ingested mushrooms, I can roll with the punches in a more ease full manner.
what were the unwanted effects or challenges of ingesting mushrooms while parenting?
Sometimes I struggle completely surrendering to the psilocybin.
what benefits have you noticed about your children that you attribute to the mushroom?
They enjoy my presence being more free flowing.

Summary

what would you like to say to other mothers & pregnant/birthing people about your own experience?
Give yourself more benefit of the doubt. Trust the process.
would you recommend this path to other people?
If you are seeking alignment to yourself in any capacity, without a doubt.
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