About the MOTM
Age:
28
Location:
Aotearoa, New Zealand
Mother of:
one
Gender identity:
female
Dosing:
microdose (.1 - 1 gram), mid dose (1-3 grams), full dose (3+ grams)
Protocol:
intuitively - as needed
The Story
how many children do you have?
one
how many pregnancies have you had?
2
how old were you when you gave birth?
26
what are your childrens' ages?
2
did any of those end in early release? (miscarriage, still birth or abortion?) if so, can you share a little about those experience?
Yes, one was a medicinal miscarriage
what surprised you about the mushroom journey?
That she would be totally fine, that my fears were not warranted but of course that makes sense too. Some research did show that tribal cultures used it for post partum depression and I resonate with that
Protocol & Dosing
with psilocybin, what has been your dosing experience?
microdose (.1 - 1 gram), mid dose (1-3 grams), full dose (3+ grams)
how long did you dose for?
two months
if microdosing, what size would you have? (.1 - 1gram)
.2g, 1g
in what form were you ingesting the mushroom?
powdered
how often did you dose?
intuitively -- as needed
if you were on a protocol, what protocol did you follow?
None
did you have any support with dosing?
when did you start ingesting mushrooms?
before i became pregnant
Pregnancy
why did you choose to ingest mushrooms before your pregnancy?
For self inquiry and spiritual realisation m. This was the higher doses
why did you choose to ingest mushrooms during your pregnancy?
I did not ingest whilst pregnant
what benefits did you notice in your pregnancy?
I did not take it during pregnancy
After Birth & Breastfeeding
why did you choose to ingest mushrooms after you gave birth?
My first bigger dose (smaller amount as NZ mushies are strong but it ended up being stronger than expected) as when she was 7 months old and I was so afraid I would harm her but my friends were doing it together by the fire and I wanted to try them again myself
After that I began occasionally microdosing to help with my ptsd and become present
did you ingest mushrooms while breastfeeding?
Yes
did you notice any benefits to a) yourself b) to your baby and what were the benefits when ingesting mushrooms while breastfeeding?
I didn’t see a change with my baby but for myself as a mother it really helped the times I was unable to connect and feeling frustrated. I chose times when we were at home and going to spend the day not doing too much and I would microdose and drink ceremonial cacao with it. I always ended up playing with her without any desire to distract myself or run off
did you notice any challenges to a) yourself b) to your baby and what were the benefits when ingesting mushrooms while breastfeeding?
No challenges i micro dosed so I wouldn’t have any struggle. Maybe once or twice I would want to rest as a gentle wave went by
Parenting
what benefits did you notice in your parenting that you attribute to the mushroom?
More gentle more patient more present more playful just way more connected. It was a medicine for the days where I was angry at her and just wanting to be away from her but had no choice or support
what were the unwanted effects or challenges of ingesting mushrooms while parenting?
Sometimes a wave would require me to rest or just marinate in it but I would just dose a little less.
what benefits have you noticed about your children that you attribute to the mushroom?
She of course would respond to my happiness and a peaceful relationship is a happy kid
Summary
what would you like to say to other mothers & pregnant/birthing people about your own experience?
If you have had them before it’s not as bad as society puts out there, if you haven’t had them it might not be the best option unless you’re with a same person or really trust as I could imagine the paranoia that you’re harming your babe might take your trip
would you recommend this path to other people?
Yes to the right people of course