About the MOTM
Age:
27 years
Location:
arizona, usa
Mother of:
one
Gender identity:
female
Dosing:
microdose (.1 - 1 gram)
Protocol:
intuitively - as needed
The Story
how many children do you have?
one
how many pregnancies have you had?
1
how old were you when you gave birth?
26
what are your childrens' ages?
3.5 months
did any of those end in early release? (miscarriage, still birth or abortion?) if so, can you share a little about those experience?
no
what surprised you about the mushroom journey?
when i first took mushrooms i thought it was just a cool fun thing to do, which this is still true but it is SO MUCH MORE than that. it is deeply healing and nourishing to the spirit. it is a MEDICINE!
Protocol & Dosing
with psilocybin, what has been your dosing experience?
microdose (.1 - 1 gram)
how long did you dose for?
still dosing
if microdosing, what size would you have? (.1 - 1gram)
.2g, .3g, 1g
in what form were you ingesting the mushroom?
capsules
how often did you dose?
intuitively -- as needed
if you were on a protocol, what protocol did you follow?
i was not on a protocol
did you have any support with dosing?
when did you start ingesting mushrooms?
before i became pregnant
Pregnancy
why did you choose to ingest mushrooms before your pregnancy?
for fun and then for healing
why did you choose to ingest mushrooms during your pregnancy?
to facilitate a deeper connection to my body & my baby. for assistance with making healthier choices. for deeper yoga and breath. to help with understanding my emotions and navigating difficult conversations.
what benefits did you notice in your pregnancy?
pain relief, eased intense emotionality, deeper connection to my body, more clear mind, less concern about other people's ideas of how i should be with my baby, easier communication of emotions.
After Birth & Breastfeeding
why did you choose to ingest mushrooms after you gave birth?
for assistance with processing very intense emotions (which it worked incredibly for, to the extent that i became emotional again by how relieved i felt). as well as easing pain and difficulty from breastfeeding.
did you ingest mushrooms while breastfeeding?
Yes
did you notice any benefits to a) yourself b) to your baby and what were the benefits when ingesting mushrooms while breastfeeding?
calmer / less stressed, baby relaxed easier, more connection emotionally with each other, easier for me to soothe baby when he's upset, easier for me to be at peace with the amount of energy i have to give to my baby / loss of autonomy.
did you notice any challenges to a) yourself b) to your baby and what were the benefits when ingesting mushrooms while breastfeeding?
challenges with postpartem depression, mushrooms helped immensely!!!!!!! life changing difference, thank God.
Parenting
what benefits did you notice in your parenting that you attribute to the mushroom?
more calm and able to take a breath before responding, more connected and present with my baby, more loving and connected with my partner / being a healthy example of a harmonious partnership
what were the unwanted effects or challenges of ingesting mushrooms while parenting?
i notice people who are negative / misaligned more easily and don't have tolerance for it as i did before. not that that's unwanted, maybe more-so unexpected. particularly with family i notice certain people interact and have a way with my baby that doesn't feel right. now i am more confident in speaking up for myself and my baby than i would have before mushrooms.
what benefits have you noticed about your children that you attribute to the mushroom?
notably chill / calm baby.
Summary
what would you like to say to other mothers & pregnant/birthing people about your own experience?
let the mushrooms help you - you are not crazy, you are not too much, you are perfect, and the mushrooms can help you breathe into that truth.
would you recommend this path to other people?
yes 100% always.